Music Rawks my LiFe

2009-06-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Jody, not going to tag anyone though. hahas.

1.Real name : Ming Xuan
2.Nickname : Mx/PMS/Ah Xuan/Ah Ming/Ah Lau + Many more...
3.Star sign : Aquarius
4.Male or female : Male
5.Primary school : Meridian
6.Secondary school : Coral
7.JC/POLY : Not yet
8.Hair color : Black
9.Long or short : Short
10.Loud or Quiet : In Between
11.Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
12.Phone or camera : 2 in 1
13.Health freak : Nope
14.Drink or smoke : Drink
15.Do you have a crush on someone : Nah
16.Eat or drink : Both!
17.Piercings : Nope
18.Tattoos : Nope

Have you ever :

19.Been in an airplane : Yup
20.Been in a relationship: Yup
21.Been in a car accident : Nope
22.Been in a fist fight : Nope

Firsts:

23.First piercing : Don't have one
24.First best friend : Err... Can't remember.
25.First award : P1. Model Student! HAHAHA.
26.First Crush : Can't remember..
27.First Vacation : Malaysia, Genting I guess.

Lasts :

28.Last person you talked to : Jodie
29.Last person you texted to : Joy
30.Last person(s) you watched a movie with: Can't remember, so long ago...
32.Last food you ate : Ice cream
33.Last movie you watched : Can't remember!!
34.Last song you listened to : Deep Purple Medley
35.Last thing you bought : F&N Grape
36.Last person you hugged : My ex..?

Favourites:

37.Food : Everything but vegetables and weird stuff.
38.Drinks : As long as its liquid!
39.Clothing : Something that looks nice on me? ( Obvious LOL )
40.Books : Comedy
41.Song : Classic Rock/Pop/Jazz
42.Flower : No particular favourite, any would be nice.
43.Colors : Red, Grey, Blue
44.Movies : Anything Funny.
45.Phrase: " Lazy ah "
46.Subjects: Maths LOL.

You ever done before:

47.Kissed in the snow : Nope.
48.Celebrated Halloween : Nope.
49.Had your heart broken : Yes.
50.Went over the minutes on your cell phone : Nope.
51.Someone questioned your sexual orientation : Huh?
52.Came out of the closest : No...?
53.Gotten pregnant : No? I'm a guy -.-
54.Had an abortion : No? I'm STILL a guy.
55.Done something you've regretted : Yup..
56.Broke a promise : Yup.
57.Hid a secret : Uh-huh.
58.Pretended to be happy : Yup. Almost all the time back then.
59.Met someone who changed your life : Yup..
60.Pretended to be sick : LOL, once or twice I think.
61.Left the country : Yup.
62.Tried something you normally wouldn't try & liked it : Can't remember.
63.Cried over some silliest thing : Yup..
64.Ran a mile : I guess so?
65.Went to the beach with your best friend(s) : Yup.
66.Stay single the whole year : Obviously lol. How can 1 year olds have relationships?! -.-"

Currently:

67.Eating : Nothing.
68.Drinking : Plain water.
69.I'm about ton : My weight? Idk. LOL.
70.Listening to : HSM. ( My sis watching it on tv outside in the living-room right now -.-" )
71.Plans for tomorrow : Maybe go Mac/Go wai po's house, then go for concert.
72.Waiting for : Time to pass
73.Want kids : I guess so..
74.Want to get married : Yah?
75.Careers in mind : Businessman?
76.Which is better , Girl / Boy : Either is fine?

77.Lips or eyes : Eyes
78.Shorter or taller : Shorter?
79.Romantic or spontaneous : Both
80.Nice stomach or nice arms : ??
81.Sensitive or loud : Sensitive
82.Hook-up or relationship : Relationship
83.Trouble-maker or hesistant : None
Have you ever:
84.Lost glasses/ contacts : Yup.
85.Ran away from home : Nope.
86.Hold a gun or knife for self defense : Nope. LOL.
87.Killed somebody : Nope.
88.Broken someone's heart : Yup.
89.Been arrested : Nope.
90.Cried when someone died : Yup.

Do you believe in:

91.Yourself : Sometimes
92.Miracles: Yup.
93.Love at first sight : Not really...
94.Heaven : Maybe..
95.Santa Claus : LOL, hmm... I don't know, heh.
96.Sex on the first date : Nope.
97.Kiss on the first date : Nope, don't think so.
98.Is there one person you want to be with right now : Nope...
99.Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : So-so bahs.
100.This is the 100th & last question : There's no question? lols.
Lazy to tag, who want to do just do bahs, and NO I'M NOT GOING TO UPDATE MY BLOG.
THANKS AND BYE. :D

2009-05-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

Today's paper was okay?
Phy tikam everything lol.
Chem still can, hahaha.
Then went for band after that, practiced a while.
Then went for Sakae, hahaha.
The rest went to eat at Manhatten.
Then after that went to playground LOL.
Played until sweat like crazy hehe.
But fun. LOL.
And celestine the face, damn funny. hahaha.
Then went back home and started watching anime Joy reccommanded me.
Eh, not bad leh.
Thriller. LOL.
Cool, :)
Okay, shall find something to do now, lazy post hahaha.
And I finally submitted the application form for the audition.
Guess I'm in huhs. hahaha.
Wonder what will happen on that day. =x

2009-05-14T01:22:00.006+08:00

Omg lahs, now i'm still online its already 1.23 am hahaaha.
Aiyah, people bored so now posting.
nothing to post also actually.
hope that all of us can get into the auditions smoothly. :)
Jiayous everyone, i know you all can do it de hahaha.
And seriously i'm bored at home lol, sleeping soon.
kay short post hahaha, bye.

i saw what you typed...
and i hope you will give up on me...
i gave you one, two chances.
you blew it, i blew it.
i'm sorry.

2009-05-09T22:55:00.001+08:00

Heehs, a bit long never post le hors, okay let me update you all.
These few days have been studying out everyday hahaha.
Damn tiring, shldn't really try these type of stuff hahaha.
Anyways as some of you might know, I got my bass guitar last week.
And today I got my first bass guitar lesson from Mr Wong!
Yes, it was all the basics, and I can tell it was really important LOL.
I think I'll take around 2-6 months to get it. gaaah.
But once I do, I'll be kicking asses.
Yah, you bet, count on it.
I'm not going to give up halfway, so not.
hahaha.

-

Oh yah, I also recently started talking to Joy.
Yah, I also don't know what reason.
We just comment like crazy on facebook. hahaha.
Quite fun. LOL.
Haven't seen her for 2 years, wonder how she's been doing hahaha.

-

Today went out to dinner at pizza hut.
Had mother's day dinner with my family and my cos' de family.
Lol, it was full-ing? hahaha.
Damn full after eating.
Then I went back home with my father.
Didn't play mahjong, see I so guai today. HAHAHA.
Then my mum went back to my cos de hse to play mahjong.
So now only left me and my dad at home.
And he's sleeping, so I'm pratically bored now.
As usual commenting like crazy, doing notes and I like mousehunt. :D
And yah, talking to people on msn LOL.

2009-04-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today was speech day...
Which means the sec4s and Rachael is stepping down...
Tsk, I'm going to miss them a lot lorhs. D:
Anyways let's start from morninggg...

-

Woke up at 5.15. According to my Handphone.
And my house clock was like 5.45.
I was like. " WTF " .
Which one to believe sia, then I sms-ed Gillian hahaha.
She thought my whole house don't even have 1 clock sia. XP
Anyways it turned out to be my house clock was correct, so I was supposed to be late,
but then , I wasn't late at all lol.
So I just went down to the Bus stop and waited for Gillian and her mum to come fetch me,
for around 10 mins ? ++
hahas, I'm so going to Gillian.. D":
Anyways after that reached and then practiced tong hua, my mouth was killing me.
I was still shedding tears when I played, so freakingly pain.
But later got used to it, cause numb alr.
Then after that went to spray hair, have breakfast and etc. lol.
Then yah, after that just went for parade uhs.
SO HOT SIA. LOL. HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT! HAHAHAHAHA.
But the parade's okay lah, didn't hurt so much cause i use cigarette paper. heehs.
Then went for concert!
So busy busy busy lol.
Then we played overture no. 1,
Renee kept saying " its my last time that I'm going to play this, so I must play this very well."
hahaha, well, we did played quite decently didn't we?
Well, after that surprise!
We played tong hua, hahaha.
It was quite okay bahhs...
Then began the crying session...
I cried a bit lah, but very fast stop liao, cause I'm strong! HAHAHAHAHA, joking only. :p
Well, after that went back to the bomb shelter and did whatever stupid things.
And some people might remember me cause I turn wrongly when we fall out?
HAHAHA, I purposely turn wrongly one. LOL.
But neh mind, quite fun anyways, :D
And I never tio scolded for turning wrongly! HAHAHA.
Anyways after that started running around and crashing people de photos, hahaha.
Omg lahs, I'm so going to miss them..
Well, after that went to BK and eat, and nothing else.

Kay, start dedicating things alr.

Renee, thanks for tolerating with my nonsense for the past 3 years.
I really appreciate what you've been doing for us.
I'll really miss the times when we have sectionals haha.
The sectionals where we will always laugh together, and have fun.
And still get SOME things done, which is quite amazing. :)
I'll also miss the times when we go out to eat, even though its not a lot of times, but still...
And yes, I'll miss pulling your hair, hahaha.
Do come back yah? hahaha...
I'll miss you.
You've been a wonderful senior, and a great friend.

Gillian, thanks for always being there when I needed advice.
You're always there to help me even though you're blonde. hahahas.
In fact, I'll miss you, cause of your bimbo-ness and everything...
I'll miss the times when we eat together and tell lame jokes haha.
Which amazingly gets all of us laughing.
I'll never forget the hormone chickens, and the hardening of fats.
I'll miss sitting in your car haha.
Do come back and visit us often kay? :)
I'll miss you.
You're of the best friends that I ever had.

Jodie, thanks for putting up with my don't wants and " LOL " all the time.
I know it can be irritating sometimes hahahas.
I'll miss the times when you start " trying to hit people with your hair " .
It makes you look funny, which makes me laugh! HAHAHA.
Oops, :p
But yah, I'll also miss the times when we do stuff together haha.
Thanks for the advices on what to do in the past, really.
They were much appriciated haha.
And I guess you can finally relax now huhs? haha...
Do come back often. :)
I'll miss you.
You've been a great friend, really great friend.

Rachael! Thanks for being there when we needed you. hahaha.
Sorry for always not playing " LOUD " .
Hope it was loud enough for you, heehs.
I will also miss the pig face you always do,
even though I don't know you do for what hahaha.
I'll also miss the times when you always go " mingxuan, mingxuan ~~ "
hahaha, come back often kay?
Jolene misses you a lot.
I'll miss you too.
You've been a great senior, :D

Celestine, hellos! Next time go Kboxing again ah?
Hahahaha, I know how to sing more then just tong hua alr okay!
And I'll miss your " zi high " haha.
Everytime will start singing random songs! lol.
And you've been a great Drum Major, hahaha.
Hope your relationship with that guy on the beach blossoms and bear fruit kay? ( LOL!! )
Do come back often hahaha.
I'll miss you.
You've been a great senior and DM. :)

2009-04-24T22:11:00.002+08:00

These few days going bass guitar crazy alr lahhs.
My father promised to go check it out at penin on wednesday! :D
Okkay, hopefully he'll buy it and I've saved $50 alr!
Just another 75 more to goo... =x
Anyways tml is the speech day...
Not looking forward to it at all, cause I know it'll be sad..
The last time we're going to play with the sec 4s...
And after that no more...
(unless on special occassions but those don't count -.- )
I'm so going to miss all of them ><
The band's so not going to be fun, hyper and not the SAME anymore without them..
Life in band is going to get boring, and maybe worse. D:
And gillian's still fetching me to school tml morning...
It'll be the last time I'm sitting her car...
Haiiz... Life isn't nice anymore.
Hope you all will step down happily, good luck for all your " O " levels okkay? :)
Jiayous hahahas..
I'll miss you all a lot, even though my face doesn't show. -.-
And psst* I didn't play today not cause I didn't want to, cause I couldn't.
If I did continued, I probably couldn't play anything on speech day.
Cause my bottom lip almost tear alr, i was like tearing when you all asked me to play tong hua again -.-
Kay, sorry.
Bye, off to do something emo-ish. haha.

2009-04-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

Everywhere I go, if I see huixiu, I'll always see the word satay. -.-
Lols, anyways today kinda funny.
School was kinda normal, nothing to talk about there.
After school was supposed to have a CHEM test, BUT for god knows what reason, Amirul, Zhafri and everyone else but Me and Nicholas didn't go for the test.
And because our teacher's a nice guy and seeing that I will fail very badly for my paper he decided to postponed it till tml where everyone can take the paper! But it'll be a different paper. But never mind! I finished memorising all the stupid equations alr! I think =x
Well, good luck to me and I finished my history essay! In an hour! Gawd my hand was like damn pain...
Wait off topic alr, actually today wanted to go out with Nicholas and June one, but my stomach has been killing me since I DON'T KNOW when. -.-
After the NAPFA test, esp. The sit-ups. Killer man, everytime I move my stomach, very pain. 2 days alr leh! Gawd, ahhh....
Thats why didn't go, and something happened on the way there.
Nicholas was dragging June cause she was talking to me, so she was walking backwards.
Unfortunately Nicholas didn't know that June who is a blonde and doesn't pay attention to her surroundings, he just dragged her up the steps and June didn't even knew there were steps.
So she fell backwards! HAHAHAHAHA!
That's the most retarded thing I've ever seen, sorry but really funny hahaha.
I mean since when do people start falling backwards from walking?! LOL.
Kay, shan't type anymore, later she come and kill me siolxz. XD
Good nights people, have a good day tomorrow hahas.

2009-04-20T21:01:00.002+08:00

I want to try typing center, hahaha. Maybe its nicer? I don't know, trying it out :p
Okkay... Today was CG SYF's day, jiayous okkay? You all did your best and its all that matters.
Looking forward to speech, cause having a joint concert.
During the speech day rehersal, I heard you all, and you all were great.
So jiayous okay? :)
Oh yah, today very very happy. :)
My father called me during the NAPFA test, lol.
Nisa was scared to pick up hahaha, anyways he called to tell me he went to Bras Basah, to check out the basses and see if there was any package for beginners like me.
He told me saw one, which was 270, TGM bass with amp and cable.
The amp however was only suitable to play for home use, not studio or performances, but I don't mind, hahaha, cause what are the chances that I'm going to perform outside anyways? :p
I don't even have a band lol. Anyways the real reason I was happy about was cause my father was willing to go all the way to check out the basses at Bugis just for me!
I'm so blessed hahaha, but he said he won't buy it for me. Tsk!
Then I told him, he buy first, I slowly pay him back by installments! LOL.
Oh well, TGM I guess is kinda okay for beginners? So I think I might wana take the offer hahas.
Going to pursuade him to buy for me tml later when he comes home.
Wish me good luck ya? And I really hope I do become a good bassit, cause it'll be a waste of a lot of people the effort, time and hopes for a few? hahahas.
And there's band, and P.E tml, gawd. Speech day FULL DRESS REHERSAL. AHHHHH~
Want to die sia, wear total black and perform in parade, after that wear the same attire chiong to perform at the concert in the hall, hahaha.
We the people from band are super-humans, you want us play parade, we play, you want us play concert, we play, you want us tune in 3 mins, we tune, you want us move instrument into the hall by 5 mins, we move. LOL.
( Everything was meant to be sacarstic, FYI )
Anyways that done I guess I'm going to watch TV now, kinda bored now cause hmm....
There's nothing much left to do on the internet! hahaha.
Oh well trying to keep my blog alive anyways hahahas.

2009-04-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

Mmm.... Today was a long day. Well, the assembly today was kinda fun, well at lesat the 2nd part of it hahas. We watched American Idol, season 1,2,3. It was HILARIOUS I TELL YOU. Omg, it was crazy, so freaking funny! The whole hall laughed hahaha. I was so lucky I didn't fall asleep lol! I want to like go youtube now and watch the remaining parts, but its kinda late alr hahaha. Well, after that went for band again, had junior band. :O They all thought it was theory today, I don't know why, hahaha, maybe they like theory? :P Well, anyways we did drills, hahaha it was kinda funny, I was laughing at the juniors like the whole time! They can't tell the difference between the commands of turning to the right and dress to the right, it was hilarious teaching them, so yah, no regrets, kinda fun. :) After that went to the parade rehersal, woah, the band formation was kinda cool, hahaha. Then June said she could hear me very clearly, cause she sits infront of me! LOL! Okay, then after that went for the concert rehersal... Hmmm... We played overture no. 1 QUITE decently, BUT NOT GOOD ENOUGH! And the school song... NO FWEELING. LOL. But seriously no hweeling. So we seriously needa work on the school song, and the CG, first time see weiren conduct hahaha, so cool. He conduct also not bad lah, except when he dropped the " baton " ( actually a stick ) but well, its still cool. hahaha. Oh and jodie and suhaylah did a good job conducting us too, be it their first one. LOL. And one more thing, the CG, dance and choir did well. I mean it was beyond my expectations, they played/danced/sang. Really really well. Hahaha, best regards for your SYFs :) Well, after that went to eat at Mac.
After huixiu went home, talked a lot with Renee. LOL. Like seriously quite a lot, we talked till 9. HAHAHA. After talking to her, made me realise something, its something negative that I don't really want to put up here, but heys, who reads my blog anyways hahaha. " I was really envious of you, why people would still remember you, even after that long. If it was me, they probably wouldn't even care. I kudos to you, really. " Oh and I also think I realised another important point... I'm considered kinda weak in my section hahaha. I think I was too complacent in the past bahs, that I've become kinda weak. I can't blast like Hansley, play nicely like izzat, or something that is worth commending about. If you tell people I play the baritone, they'll go like. Okay, he plays the baritone, thats all there is to it. I thought I played well, due to the fact, I know my rhythm, and I don't get wrong notes, but you see, if you talk about Amirul, he has nice tone, and he plays very nicely too, thats something worth commending, but I DON'T have nice tone, nor do I play very nicely either. I'm just an average baritone player. Take June, she has confidence, and dares to play loudly and can support Amirul ( someone who's starting to play loudly lol ) without any problem, and they 2 sound the same. So she's someone who have lots of confidence, but still room for improvement in other areas, but I can't support the band as the bass, as Mr Wong is always complaining the bass is too soft, so I'm not better then June either. So I'm like the weakest in my section haha, this is bad. Tsk. Let's take Nicholas as another example, he's always complaining his rhythm, cannot make it, but when you see Nicholas, you'll say, his tone is better then last time, there was improvement. But if you take me for example, my tone didn't really improve or what. Its just like that. From the start I played Bari till now, no one has actually said my tone did improve or what, so I guess its really that bad huhs? So I guess its time I give myself a morning call, I'm not good and far from it. What must I do to improve? I don't want to be weak.

2009-04-02T23:19:00.004+08:00

SYF! WOOOH~

Today woke up very very early, at 6am. LOL. Never woke up so early before sia, then went to prepare to leave the house. Then in the end reach the school quite early, and Zhafri was already there. Hahaha, he still came so early. So yah, went to put my bag in class, and after that went to sit at the staircase haha. Then saw the band members strolling one by one came haha. Then wish them good luck and all, and like Celestine said, xoxo love and hahaha, so weird. After that, went for home-room then headed for band practice already. Whooo~ Then had butterflies in my stomach, hahaha. But after the last rehersal, I wasn't really nervous anymore lols. Anyways, now is already 11.30pm.

LOL, sorry, my tml a bit off ah, hahaha.
So as I was saying, after the last rehersal, I wasn't that scared anymore, so yah, we got ready our uniforms and everything. That's so weird can. People take forever to get their hair done, LOL. And forever to change, and by the time we're done, we weren't even late leh! Not even a single bit late! lol. After that we went off to SCH! We were still quite high on the bus, couldn't even tell if we were a least bit scared lol! Then after that when we reached, the atmosphere was really, tense. Its like even though there were many people, its not at all really noisy. And we were sitted beside Compassvale. We even said hi to them, its like we weren't even nervous at all. And we were still high LOL. Sarmiah also talked to us and told us a lot of things, hahaha. After that went to the tuning room, even though I wrote down the JBC, I couldn't do it. LOL. So sad... But nvm, at least Mr Wong didn't scold for THAT PERIOD OF TIME, so it didn't dampen my spirits hahaha. Then the next thing we knew we were outside, waiting for our turn. This time is really where all the butterflies started flying in hahaha. Renee told us to do the breathing excercise Sarimah has taught us, and it did help me to cool down, hahaha and before we went in, " JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!! " And the next thing I knew, we were playing music. Hahaha. Overture no. 1 was great, Daniel started it confidently and the rest was awesome, I wouldn't say we were the best, but I can say we did great. :D
After that we played merry widow! Its simply touching, the percaussion finally sounded like a music box, so nice! And all the other parts of the song, the slow part, I think we did capture A FEW people hearts hahaha, almost cried halfway during the piece, its nice. After that, we went out and started yelling and screaming and crying like mad people hahaha. Shouting " Its finally over, its finally over. " A lot of people cried, saying it was one of our best performance hahaha. Next we went into the hall again, as audience witnessing all the other bands. My, they were good, SERIOUSLY! Then after that... Was the results. It was really scary! omg, we held hands when they announced the result... Band no. 75, CORAL CONCERT BAND..... GOLD. THEN THE WHOLE HALL WENT DOWN! WOOOOOOOOOOOO~ LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE IN A MAD ROOM. OMG CAN'T STOP THE TEARS, IT WAS AWESOME, SERIOUS, THE FEELING, IS LIKE OMG. After that the MC told us to stop screaming and crying, and told us to go out and start screaming and crying LOL. And obviously we did, we went out screaming and crying and hugging, taking photos, but I already stopped crying alr, hahahaha, this is called GOOD SELF CONTROL! :) Then after that went back to Pasir Ris after a while, hahaha. WHAT A DAY SIA. LOL. The best day of my life when EVERYTHING FEELS WORTH IT. And it made me feel useful somehow. hahaha... Went to eat and went home, as usual, but ITS WORTH IT MAN, ITS WORTH IT. HAHAHAHA.
BAND NO. 75, CORAL CONCERT BAND.... GOLD!!!

2009-03-02T22:01:00.002+08:00

Due to the popular demand for me to blog!
For idk what reason -.-
I shall do a bit of blogging.
Only a tiny weeny bit.
Kay today went to school did the usual stuff.
Had common test!
The english was relatively easy...
The chinese ah, the Part 1 only knew how to write 3 questions.
And all last minute learn one.
Imagine if I didn't learn, probably all 10 question were blanks -.-
Okay never minds...
Then after that had lessons as usual.
Can tell Miss Anne is really sick. ( See i never call her by nicknames lor, i not so evil, unlike some people *coughs coughs* )
Then just did everything as usual and as expected Nichol didn't do anythinggggg. -.-
Kay fine whatever, don't care alr.
Then after school went to watch " He's just not that into you " with honeyy.
She says she's been waiting for it for very long alr. hahaha.
So just went to watch uhs.
The show was funny. lol.
Should go watch :p
Ah, then sent honeyy back home, her mama unfortunately didn't see me this time LOL.
So yah, but I walked the way to downtown and took bus there -.-
Kay neverminds, then went home and started playing gamess...
*coughscoughs*
point to facebook. LOL.
Facebook is addictve and fun. HAHAHA.
Okay then I guess that's all for the post, I said it'll be a short one anyway! :p
hahaha, ily honeyy. XD

2009-02-19T19:35:00.001+08:00

Something like a piece of paper can't express everything...
There are more than meets the eye...
How much is truth, how much is lie..?

2009-02-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

okay, here's the continuation of the birthday gifts.
apparently people are treating its like my birthday for 3 days alr lol.
anyways...

Thanks yonling and justina for the carebear. And loads of newspaper.
Thanks nicholas for buying the cake and the rest ( amirul, nisa, grace, mutiara, zhafri, huixiu, daniel ) for celebrating it with me.
Thanks the band for wishing me happy birthday yesterday. :)

2009-02-04T22:54:00.003+08:00

Thanks everyone for the wishes. :D
Much appreciated.
Hope everyone stay healthy and happy!!
And to those who never wish me, you watch out kay! lol, chey! hahaha.
Crazy alr. :p

Thanks hun for the present. :D
Thanks everyone for the cards. :D
Thanks mama and papa for dinner. :D
Thanks ying for the present. :D
Thanks everyone who wished me on facebook a happy birthday. :D
Thanks those who smsed me a happy birthday too. :D

2009-01-27T12:47:00.003+08:00

Nothing to see here~
If i pushed you in, i'll put you out again. and never let you fall again.

2009-01-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling stupid right now.
I don't know what i'm feeling.
its some kind of mixed up feeling.
i'm feeling sad, yet angry and pissed but not really angry and pissed.
and i'm crying on new years day! wohoo, not bad huhs.
grats on making me cry -,-
i was just being concerned.
and you're the last person on earth that i thought that you would do that to me. ( if put correcty, " not do that " is more appropriate )
no , i don't hate you, in fact, i hate myself, for being so weak and fragile. i'm crying now. no wait, must be the smoke. yup, the smoke is making tears run down my face and mucus coming out from my nose. yes i know what you're thinking. disgusting huhs.
and happy new year...
as much as i want you to stay happy and healthy, it was just my good intentions, but you're not getting it.
i give up.
i rushed back from malaysia, and had many things to tell you.
and... you weren't at home.
i know you're celebrating cny with your family members at your grandmama house, but i really felt hurt when you came back home and treated me like this.
i lost all the mood to tell you everything that happened today, what i was happy about, what i was sad about, what i saw, what i heard, pratically everything that happened today, i wanted to share with you, but you just...
sorry if you think i'm over-reacting.
but i can't help it. and i'm sorry.
but i still love you...

2009-01-22T19:28:00.003+08:00

I give up.

Okay, wait, I feel like writing like " i " so I just write uhs.
The top part is my conculsion after what happened today, and a few other times.
Today rights, like school was a bit crazy for me.
I "cried" in class but they made it seem like it was funny, so i laughed it off, yah.
Er... After school went to fish market to eat with Nic again!
Gawd, I like eating with him now, so funny!! hahaha.
He totally cheered me up lahs. :p
We went to the fishmarket to order food, then we talked about our lives again.
Its always like that when we 2 eat together, talk about some crazy stuff, hahaha.
which troubles us like idk what, and i know what you people are thinking, i this type of everyday laugh laugh laugh where got troubles right? but ask yourself, i have been laughing lesser haven i?
Anyways, talked alot then we stumbled into 1 question.
I shan't tell you all here, its quite private, ask me yourself if you want to know. hahaha.
Don't worry, i'll tell if you ask.
Then the question right, we asked the waitress there. LOL.
Like so damn random lah!! HAHAHA.
Damn funny, it was like a personal question then we go ask the waitress if she knows how to solve, some more is 2 waitress leh. LOLLL.
I still remember the name Jale and Dinie. Then Dinie was like don't want to serve us alr like that, cause nicholas kept asking her like, " whats your reccomandation? "
Then still have, er...after repeating our orders right, then she said " Is your order all correct? "
Then nicholas say, " what if i say no? " LOL.
I laugh laugh laugh like crazy like that, hahaha.
He totally cheered me up uhs, thanks nicholas. HAHAHA.
Then on the way to the " money changer" we met Mrs Ho. LOL.
Yes the "money changer".
ehh, mi tang sotong, you know what i talking about rights? if you read this anyways hahaha.
Ah, yah, the give up thing has something to do with what i discussed with nicholas. :p
Kay, all for today, and I wished roy a happy birthday too, not bad rights, i getting more socialable. :O

2009-01-20T16:46:00.001+08:00

Ah, kayy.
So now I'm sick. D:
Just before chinese new year too! I haven't even started eating all the goodies, and I got sick alr. D: D: D:
I'm so going to hate this year's new year. ><
Oh yaah, mi tang sotong ah, you also take care of yourself leh.
Tsk, got flu alr ah, drink more water and rest more ah, you don't anyhow horrs.
Promise ah! If no, you'll find me at your doorstep waiting to do the pinky promise. HAHAHA.

Kaykayy, remember horrs!
Take care of yourself ahs, don't end up sick like me. =x

2009-01-18T00:20:00.005+08:00

This is what happened if you want to know why I so late reached home. D: I went out at 5.30, went to my friend's place, just opposite the road, to get something from him, next i went to white sands, and when i reached there it was about 6.05 I was hungry, cause I didn't had anything to eat, so I bought a double cheeseburger cause i know that we'll be eating after the concert. And after that we went to buy flowers for the people performing and then we went to their school. After the concert it was, 9.45 It was a freaking 2 hrs long concert, with no refreshments and their encore is 15mins long -.- So that dragged abit. D: After that we walked all the way to bedok market, cause its faster to walk then take a bus there. D: After that when we reached it was about 10.30. I could've went home not eating anything, and make it home very early, sorrryyy. D: I chose to eat cause i didn't had dinner. D: Then after eating, it was 11.15 already. waited for bus 10 and after it reached the tamp interchange, it was 11.30 The mrt had already closed, we had to take the cab back, and A LOT of people just cut our queue. So that delayed again, sorry. D: Then after that took a cab, home, after dropping people, i rushed home and on-ed the comp alr, and to find out i was late by 3 mins. D: D: D: I'm really really sorry. I know it was wrong of me to come home so late, but i really tried my best. D: Please forgive me kayy..? D:
I really didn't want to come home so late. D:
Pwease pwease?
Really sorry honeyy sotong. D: D:

2009-01-17T14:30:00.002+08:00

please don't cry already kayy..? its contagious... esp to the people who love you. ><
no matter what happens, i'll always be there for you kayy...?
iloveyou.

2009-01-14T23:00:00.003+08:00

Last post of the day! Before I go to sleep. :p
Okay, hmm... let's see.
Today morning there were people from sze chuan visiting us.
I was their buddy! My buddy's name is Li XinZe.
LOL, and he looks hot lah okay.
Girls you all should keep a look out for him. :p
Then after that err... toured around the school. Talked quite little compared to a lot of people, but still okay bahs.
Cause my chinese succkss like hell. I couldn't translate most of the english words to chinese words lah D:
Ahh, nvms. Tml they will be having lessons with us! POA. lol.
I wonder if they can understand what mrs ng will be saying tml hahaha.
Okay, then that's all. Missed chem and lit.
The mindmap still with me lehs! how ah? lol. Oh yah, mi tang sotong, thanks for helping me print out. :D
Okay, after that, errr.... Had phy, so ... **** .
I didn't say anything. :O
Okay then ended the day, went home with mi tang sotong, cause she looks so sleepy, like anytime can go into sleep walking instead of walking lol. Then i kept poking her hahaha, to keep her awake. Then she say she hungry go home cook noodle, i scared she cook halfway fall asleep, so pei her go her house cook before i went off. hahaha.
Then went for tuition, till 9.30! stayed back for a while cause i didn't understand what the hell was co-ordinates geometry -.- Crapped man. Then finished my remainder and factor theroem! yay~ The only one i liked so far. And i'm begginning to hate indices cause the maths homework so hard! D: The school one. =x
Oh well, going to sleep now tata peeps. hahaha.
Oh ya, sorry for not relinking ah. Will link and relink soon, cause nowadays damn busy! you see what time i'm posting now, and i have to be in school early tml because they are coming early again tml and i must bring them to class! lols.

*poke*
Mi tang sotong ah, 8 months alr lehhs. LOL.
You still remember a not? tskkkkk.
Hahaha, okayokay.
Stay happy ar! :p
Happy anniversary too!! hahaha.
iloveyou. ^^

2009-01-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

:O
Due to the popular demands from the tagbox to NOT close down my blog, I shall not close down my blog, at least for the time being haha.
Shall try to update daily lol.
Err...
Start with today, morning woke up and went to school as usual. Nothing happened.
Then it was elect hist. LOL.
Justin lied about our class being locked, so we wasted around 15mins walking around the school looking for a place, hahaha. In the end we still went back to our own class lol.
Then someone put contacts worrs. hahaha.
Yes you look prettier with your contacts, :p
But then rights, if it makes your eyes itch so much, don't force yourself to put kay.
People heart pain ah -.-
Kay anyways, after that * fast forward*
Had band. :O
then played for oreintation lol.
Quite funny hahaha.
Then waited for somebody until 7++ :O
Hahaha, then so scared someone pop out from no where sia lol.
A bit funny, and yes its scary.
ah, kay thats all, i'm going to do my maths now. :D
Mi tang sotong told me to do maths now. :p

2009-01-12T18:37:00.002+08:00

Closing down the blog soon, lazy to post ah.
Besides no one really reads it anyways. hahaha.
And its better if I close it, then no one will know what I'm thinking. :O
Besides I think I'm close to suffering from depresion -.- Shitzx.

if girls are lisenced to cry, then boys are lisenced to feel jealous.

2009-01-06T21:33:00.001+08:00

Today a lot of thoughts run through my mind lah, I also damn scared of myself sia.
Thoughts of commiting suicide and whatever.
But yah, thought about it and decided I need a good night sleep.
And when I wanted to sleep, I remembered I have to find some STUPID card and watch the 9pm show. mi tang sotong says its funny. so i just go watch uhs.
kay bye people, thanks for the concern today. much appreciated. :)
Like really thanks. hahaha.

2009-01-05T18:31:00.002+08:00

ah, didn't get to sleep.
instead made someone very angry.

蜂蜜乌贼! ( Couldn't find the chinese form for sotong. =x )
Really sorry! I didn't know I made you so pissed. D:
Really really really sorry! I won't be like that again kayy... ><
And you're not dumping me because of your friends kay, just treat it as I was joking or anythingg.
对不起!! D:

请你原谅我好吗？ ><

2009-01-05T18:00:00.001+08:00

ahh, I feel like sleeping!
And now its only 6pm! And no I'm not a pig -.-
Then someone horrs, say she want to get contacts on wednesday lehhs.
Then dump me aside again, not bad rights! :O
Then like she not pretty enough like that, want to make herself more pretty, get contacts. :O
Ah, kay lah. *mumbles something to myself*

Bye! Off to sleep.

2009-01-04T20:45:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Esther to do this quiz.
Yes it kills boredom, thats why I'm doing it. hahaha.

1: Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?

Idk..? I haven't got kissed anywhere else before whaaats.

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?

* I want to go back to sleep *

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?

Idk...? I forgot... I think it was when we went to marina barage. O.o

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

Yaaah... Very. LOL.

5: Would you ever donate blood?

Yeap.

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex (boy because I am a girl)?

Yah, I think lol.

7: Do you want someone dead?
Maybe. :O

8: What does your last text message say?

" Everybody laugh at me when I wore my long pants lorhs. "

9:What are you thinking of right now?

Finding animals. LOL. ( Honeyy knows this. hahaha. )

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?

Yesshh.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
12.30am..?

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?

Forgotten where, but I bought this 4 years ago lol.

13: Is someone on your mind right now?

Yaaahhh...

14: Who was the last person to text you?

Jeslyn. o.o

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ

1.)Yunxuan
2.)Huixiu
3.)June
4.)Wenxian
5.)Anita
6.)Zhafri
7.)Eileen
8.)Genevieve
9.)Jody
10.)Jolin

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with? Huixiu

Er... Nicholas. With star one. LOL.

16: Is 3 a male or a female? June
Err... 3/4 female, 1/4 male? LOL.
(hahaha sorry, female female. :p )

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing? Eileen and Jolin

O.o I don't think they into les.

18: What is Number 1 studying about? Yunxuan

F&N. I know she hates it too haha. :p

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?

Err... Some quite long ago, some just now only. hahaha.

20: Is Number 4 single? Wenxian
Idk leh. LOL. I shall ask him next time I see him.

21: Say something about Number 2. Huixiu

Crazy pig. lol.

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together? June and Zhafri

HAHAHAHAHAHA. I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING LOL.

23: Describe Number 9. Jody

Ah, how to describe? lol. She's nice? hahaha.

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight? Zhafri and Eileen

Ah, I don't think they will ever fight.

Kayy... shall go find something to do, if nothing off to sleeeeeep. hahaha.

2008-12-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

Feeling unappreciated really sucks, and I really am crying right now wtf.

2008-12-27T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hoho... This post is going to be long, cause I haven't blogged for very long alr. hahaha.
Shall start with the quizzes Esther tagged me to do.

TEN FACTS

1. Full Name - Lau Ming Xuan.

2. Nicknames - Sotong. LOL.

3. Birth place - Singapore.

4. Hair color - Black

5. Natural hair style - Neat.

6. Eye colour - Black.

7. Birthday - 4th Feb.

8. Mood - Idk.

9. Favorite color - Red, Cyan, Yellow.

10. One place you'd like to visit - Japan?

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love - Yeah.

2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Not really.

3. Do you currently have a crush? - Honeyy, I got crush a not ah?

4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - Yeah.

5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - I don't know, you can't ask me cause I don't know whaat.

6. Have you ever had your heart broken - Yeah.

7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - Yeah, but I "told" her eventually hors? haha.

8. Are you afraid of commitment - Sometimes.

9. Who was the last person you hugged - Honeyy.

10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? Mi Tang Sotong.

TEN THIS OR THAT

1. Love or lust - Love.

2. Hard liquor or beer - Beer.

3. Cats or dogs - Dogs.

4. A few best friends or any regular friends - A few best friends.

5. Creamy or Crunchy - Creamy.

6. Pencil or Pen - Pencil.

7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic night in.

8. Money or Happiness - Happiness = Money. How choose?

9. Night or day - Night.

10. IM or phone - IM.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

1. Been caught sneaking out - Yeah.

2. Seen a polar bear - In the zoo lorhs.

3. Done something you regret - Yeah.

4. Bungee jumped - Nope, I want try though lol.

5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - Nahh... Wait, did I? lol.

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - What's that. O.o

7. Been caught naked - I don't think so?

8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Not really... Cause if she wants it that way, then...

9. Cried because you lost a pet - Nope...

10. Wanted to disappear - Yeah.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER

1. Smile or eyes - Smile.

2. Light or dark hair - Light.

3. Hugs or kisses - Kisses.

4. Shorter or taller - Shorter

5. Intelligence or attraction - Attraction.

6. Topman or Zara - ?

7. Funny or serious - Funny. lol.

8. Older or Younger - Same or younger haha.

9. Outgoing or quiet - Outgoing.

10. Sweet or Bad - Sweet :p

TEN HAVE YOUS

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yeah.

2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - Yeah.

3. Ever tried walking on your hands - Nope.

4. Ever been to a rock concert - Nope.

5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - Yeah. LOL.

6. Ever been on a dance team - Nope.

7. Ever been on a sports team - Yeah.

8. Ever been in a drama play/production - Yeah.

9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - Nope, but I want a BMW. lol.

10. Ever been in a rap video? - Nahh.

TEN... LASTS

1. Last phone call you made - Gillian.

2. Last person you hugged - Honeyy.

3. Last person you hung out with - Gillian, Huixiu, Nic.

4. Last time you worked - Have not worked for quite long le.

5. Last person you talked to - My cos.

6. Last person you IM'd - Honeyy.

7. Last person you texted - Jeslyn.

8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - Huixiu, Nic.

9. Last person/thing you missed - My honeyy, and of course my friends.

10. Last website visited - Honeyy's blog. hahaha.

Okay on to the next quiz, also tagged by Esther. LOL.

1. Who was the last person to call you honey ?

Honeyy lorhs. lol.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart ?

Yah, like duh?

3. Are You Single, or taken?

I don't know leh, honeyy I taken a not ah?

4. Has someone ever sang a song to you?

Er... No... ?

5. Do you play Sudoku?

Msn one! lol.

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?

I don't know, never try before. LOL.

OMG, where's question 7-18? Lol.

19. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?

My brother?

20. Who do you text the most?

Honeyy, Huixiu, Nic, Jeslyn.

21. Who last said they loved you?

Honeyy. hahaha.

22. What color are your eyes?

Black.

Where's question 23 & 24? -.-

25. Do you like your parents?

Yaah.

26. Do you secretly like someone?

Nope. Not secretly. hahaha.

27. When did your last relationship end?

One year ago? o.o

28. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?

I think it was honeyy? lols.

29. Favorite ex?

Only had one lah. -.-

30. Where was the farthest place you traveled?

Korea!

Question 31?! Where are you?!

32. Do you like mustard?
Depends. o.o

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
I love both, people who know me should know I'm like a pig, I eat and sleep. HAHAHA.

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
I don't know, you tell me lahhs.

35, where are you -.-

36. Can you do splits?

Nope.

37. What movie do you want to see right now?

Bedtime stories.

38, WHERE ARE YOU?

39. What did you do for New Year's Eve?

Haven't even new year eves. -.-"

40. Where will you be celebrating your new year's day next year?

Home lorhs...

41 & 42 is gone o:

43. Was your mom a cheerleader?

No? Wait, I don't know! lol.

44 gone with the wind too -.-

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?

Ah? Shh....

46!?

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
5-7?

48. Do you like Care Bears?

Nope.

49. What do you buy at the movies?

Movie tickets, popcorns/nachos, sprite/coke.

50. Do you know how to play poker?

Err... I think so, wait, maybe not lol.

51. Do you wear your seat belt?

Yeah.

52. What do you wear to sleep?

Clothes? -.-

53. Anything big ever happen in your town?

Nope.

54. Is your hair good?

Define good. o.o

55. Is your tongue pierced?

Nope, don't want either.

56. Do you like Liver and Onions?

Onions yes, liver no.

57?!

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?

Funny obviously lol.

59. Ever been to L.A.?

Nope... Honeyy let's go there someday. lol.

60. Who is on your mind right now?

Honeyy lorhs. Miss her like siao like that.

61. Any plans for tonight?

Sleep sleep and more sleep.

62. What's your favorite song at the moment?

A lot of chinese songs hahaha. Slow slow chinese songs. lol.

63. Do you hate chocolate?

Never!

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?

Err... Don't know leh, quite long we had a fight liao lol.

65. Are you a gullible person?

Depends on the person trying to trick me.

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?

I don't need, but I want them to be happy.

67. If you could have any job what would it be?

Pilot! Rich rich rich lol.

68. Are you easy to get along with?

Yaah, if you treat me as a normal human. o.o

69. What is your favorite time of day?

When I'm with honeyy.

70. Are you a generally happy person?

Yah.. I guess.

Woahh, finally done with the quizzes can finally start posting lol.

-Recalls -

Kaayy, it was christmas eve ah, then my cos was holding a party, a christmas party and a birthday party. Cause his birthday was on 26th of dec, so just celebrate lorhhs.
Then my mama keep telling me, got this saxophone superstar.
Then I like yaaah, kayy. I was like, quite looking forward to meeting him ah, cause my mama say until he very pro liddat, so yaah.
Cause she said he took part in competitions with his partner, which is someone who plays the piano. Then rights, like, starting of the party, got a lot of people ah.
Then like, I was playing xbox, cause damn bored mahs, then later started to eat a bit, they bought sushi from NTUC lol. So ate a bit too.
Then more people came. Kayy, so let's see.
There's a guy, same age as me, 14.
Then there's 2 girls, 14 and 13. Jeslyn and Channie.
Then got another girl, Sally, 10. lol. And her sister, Lily, who is younger hahaha.
Kayy, then we started playing in the room lah, lol.
I started wacking everybody's head with the pillow lol.
Everyone like shouted ouch lorhs hahaha.
Then another girl from Malaysia also joined us, she 12. Er... Name was yon/yong. lol.
Then we started playing lorhs, then that girl from malaysia keep hiting me lorhs.
Very pain sia, she take those super hard "soft" toys ( -.- ) Then keep wacking me sia, some more wack the back of my head lorhs lol, damn pain. Then she say my face very qian bian LOL.
Really mehhs? D:
Ah okay, then after that went to the playground, watched the lil ones play, LOL.
My bro and sister also lahhs, hahaha.
Then after that we went back home, cause my cos said the saxophone guy came alr.
His name was Hong Yun I think.
Ah kay, so when he came he was quite hot? I don't know you all girls what's hot lah. But yah lah, he way more shuai then me lahs.
Then thats the stuuupid part lorhs.
You know what? When he came right, my mama, my wai po, and my yiyi all said.
" Eh, you see that guy? He 19 and he play saxophone leh. He is our SUPERSTAR! He very shuai hors ? More shuai then you leh. "
Then I like okay.. okay..
Then my wai po, ( you know those old people always like to compare ) then she keep saying " Ta bi ni shuai leh. Ta bi ni shuai leh. "
Then like what I'm suppose to say? I already said he hotter then me liao, what you want?
Like sorry lah! I never dye my hair and change colour, I never gel my hair. I not 19. What you want? Then like your son not shuai then my fault ah? You think I no feeling one ah? Keep saying I not shuai. I know I ugly lah, but you say until so happy you think what?
Then after that I emo lorhs, damn stupid lah, lie down on the bed and just close my eyes uhs.
Then Jeslyn asked me why I so emo all of a sudden , cause I was very high and hyper just now mahs. Obviously I couldn't tell her rights -.-
So I diam diam lorhs ,then yah we started play some games like uno and cheat. LOL.
Then she owns at stress. Siao one. lol.
Ah, then after that just went home lorhs, oh and I made quite a good friend today, Jeslyn lorhs. hahaha. Then I told my mama, then my mama say " Eh, ni ren shi ren jia yi tian jiu you ta de dian hua liao ah? " Then I like whatever lah, just now say me until like that, then now you telling me this -.- ( No, don't count as quarreling cause I didn't talk back to her )
Then everybody went home liao, we last one to go home hahaha.
Ah kay, then yahhh. And honeyy if you get jealous, don't be, cause I love you and only you hahaha.

Shall continue this another day, today was a tiring day, shall blog about the other 2 days next time hahaha. Tata~

2008-12-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

Whooo~ I'm tired and there's camp tml! Needa wake up at 6. LOL. Wait, did I talk about the camp again? :O Honeyy, don't hate me pwease~ LOL.
Kayy, shall make this a quick post.
Today woke up valy late -.- at 9am. ( hahaha, honeyy thinks this is EARLY. LOL. )
Anyways, today went to honeyy's house then watched tv there. ( I do that EVERY visit LOL )
Okkay, she was still very tired though hahaha, cause she woke up valy early! :O
Then after watching tv ( lol ) went to e!hub. First we bought our movie tickets then we walked around.
We couldn't decide on what to eat then honeyy suddenly thought of having a little picnic upstairs lol.
She said last time she had it with Cheryl, then valy fun. O.o
So went to NTUC to buy sushi! Then after that went to cupwalker to buy Honey Red Tea. LOL.
Then went up all the way to 5th floor to have our picnic. We ate and talked and counted how many times the e!hub wheel went around LOL. Then after that went to Superdog. Hahaha, honeyy was complaining it was cold alr, see tell her bring jacket she don't want hahaha. Talked a lot there too, then after that went in to the cinema, smuggled the cupwalker drink in LOL.
Then we sat right right right at the back LOL. 1st time sit so behind sia hahaha.
So yaaah, the movie's quite okay. I prefer the book though. Hahaha.
Very rushed outtt. I mean I took a few months to read the book ( Yes I know honeyy i read very slowly -,- ) And they made the movie 2 hours? Obviously lots of things are missing. And doctor cullen is hotter then Edward. ( No I'm not gay ) And I personally don't like Jacob the look. LOL.
Okay after the movie went we couldn't stand still, we had problems walking LOL. Cause sat for 2 hours mahhs hahaha. Then after that sent honeyy home. Heeehs. P.S I meant what I said...
If you don't remember, knock your head yourself. hahaha. ( originated from poke yourself ) ah kay.
Then after that I went back to e!hub to eat the chicken rice, it was not bad.
Honeyy doesn't like it though hahaha.
Kayy, then now here I am posting and preparing to pack my stuff and go to sleep hahaha.

Honeyy, I'll miss you kayy. Really >.<
Don't rot all day horrrs! RAWR.
Thanks for spending today with me hahaha.
And really, I'll miss you a lot.
Iloveyou ♥

2008-12-14T22:15:00.003+08:00

mmm... Today was interesting, idk where to start lol.
Ate a bit of lunch before leaving the house, trust me, its really a bit lol.
Then went out haha. Brought an umbrella-ella-ella-a-a-a. LOL.
Then went to tamp, hahaha.
When i just reached tamp, which was 1pm honeyy called me. O.o
A bit surprised ah, haha.
Then i thought she coming soon cause she said her practice ended alr. So yaaah, waited a while, and yessss, its sooner then all the other times lol.
Then after honeyy came we went to the giraffee store. O.o
Wanted to look for masks and black cloths/cloaks. But honeyy said that now halloooweeeenn alr over, so never sell liao. Then we went walking around tm. hahaha. got side-tracked and went looking at books lol. Then we went to cs to see if there was anything, but nehh, none. lol.
So we went to west plaza! And nic and nisa came too. So i bought the glow sticks and gloves and mask. Then i sent honeyy home cause it was getting "late" for her alr. lols.
Then when we board the bus rights, we stood cause no seats, then i put my umbrella hanging in the front. Then got seat at the back we went and sit and i totally forgot about my umbrella lol.
Then got someone sat at the seat of the umbrella then, then when we alight, i went and took the umbrella then that guy stare at me. So ps! lol. But funny lahhs, and i know honeyy finds this funny. -.-
Kayy, then went home with honeyy, then after that went to central. To buy some cloths. The auntie there told me a lot of people came and bought cloths ytd. Hahaha, funny. She told me got vampire LOL. So i probably guessed is who alr heehs.
Kayy, today was nice lahs. hahaha. Shall go and pack and sleep soon. Meeting at 6.30 tml wth. ><

Yayy~ Happy anniversary. :O
How many months alr ahh...?
Let's count.
1,2,3,5,9,0,12,51,7...
oo... 7 rights! hahaha.
Kayy, love you lots. This month's short. Cause i want you to write somethingg! LOL.
hahaha. :p
P.S I love you. ^^

2008-12-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

Saw this quiz on huixiu's blog, decided to do it while waiting for something to happen...
I don't think it'll happen, but nonetheless I'll try my luck. ( I'm waiting for you... )

1. What have you been doing recently?
-Playing jigsaws and solitare haha.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
- Nope, unless something happens.

3. What happen at 10am today?
- I was sleeping? O.o

4. When did you last cry?
- Didn't cry, teared cause I was worried about you. D:

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
- A bit bahs.

6. What do you want in your life now?
- A lot of things. I'm greedy haha. A greedy lazy mi tang pig sotong. lol.

7. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
- Nope.

8. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
- Nope.

9. What was the last movie you caught.
- The day the Earth stood still. ( Not really entertaining )

10. Does the person you like knows that you like him/her?
- Mi Tang Sotong! You know I like you mah? :O

11. Who always makes you laugh?
- Everybody? I laugh at everything. :D

12. Do you speak languages other than english?
- Yaah...? o.o

13. Favourite website(s)?
- Err... Mi Tang Sotong's blog. ^^

14. What are you doing tomorrow?
- Meeting Mi Tang Sotong, hope she'll be okay. D:

15. What do you wanna be like?
- Myself? Macham best. :D

16. Who will you choose to die with?
- Die alone.

17. Where have you been today?
- White sands, Downtown, Safra, Home.

18. What game do you play often?
- Jigsaw too and solitare showdown LOL.

19. Who are you missing right now?
- Mi Tang Sotong. ( Missing since idk when alr )

20. If you have to choose between a friend and a lover, who will you choose?
- Both. I told ya I'm greedy.

21. What are you doing right now?
- Thinking of reapers.

22. Which primary school were you from?
- Meridian Primary School...?

23. Name three colours you like.
- Red, Blue, Yellow..? o.o

24. What emotion do you like to show?
- Emotionless.

25. What is life to you?
- Life is a rollar-coaster. Seriously.

26. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
- Share my problems with Mi Tang Sotong. haha.

27. Who did you last chat with on msn today?
- Huixiu.

28. Who do you admire the most?
- Nobody?

29. Which month are you born in?
- Feb?

30. How are you feeling right now?
- Worried. D:

31. What is the time now?
- 11.49pm

32. Your opinion on the person who tagged you.
- Never tio tag, ownself do one.

33. What colour do you like to dye your hair?
- Don't like dying hair.

34. Why are you doing this test?
- Trying to get my mind to stop thinking of other stuffs.

35. What do you do when you're moody?
- Be emo. And hope someone will cheer me up. Horrs Mi Tang Sotong? :D

36. At which stage do you wish to get married?
- Idk?

37. Who is closer to you?
- huhh? Between who?

38. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
- Run over to Mi Tang Sotong house even if her mama is there and tell her I love her.

39. Who is/are the people/person you trust the most?
- My parents and Mi Tang Sotong. haha.

40. Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
- Yaah...

41. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
- No idea...?

42. What is your goal for this year?
- Idk...? The year's ending.

43. Do you believe in eternity love?
- Idk...

44. What feeling do you love the most?
- Being in love...?

45. What feeling do you hate the most?
- Jealousy. -.- It kills me.

46. Do you really think it's global warming now?
- Yah...?

47.Do you like doing quizzes?
- Yaah...? Why not. O.o

48. Do you believe in gods?
- Not really lol.

49. Who cares for you the most?
- Family and Friends and Mi Tang Sotong?

50. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Loveeeee.

51. What will you bring when you fight?
- Legs, to run away.

2008-12-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

sorry I wasn't there when things didn't go well for you. I know I was busy, but that wasn't suppose to be an excuse. I'm sorry. Really really sorry. I know today isn't a good day for you. But hope you'll really cheer up. I know you won't see this, till you come back home tml. So I just hope you'll cheer up really. Sorry... really sorry.

2008-12-08T16:58:00.002+08:00

this is what i mean when i sucked. instead of making you happy and cheering you up, i made you cry. thats what i meant by i'm such a bloody phailure. sorry. and please don't cry. whatever you're crying for isn't worth your tears. your tears are worth much much more...

2008-12-07T23:39:00.004+08:00

I know I'm a boring and naggy person. I know everytime I tried to cheer you up its all useless. I know I suck at being a boyfriend. I know I suck at cheering you up. I know I suck at helping you with stuffs. I know i suck at everything.
Sorry, for everything I ever sucked at. Which is everything. I'm not making any sense but I'm making perfect sense .____.
I know you're still keeping some stuff from me, and no I don't blame you. But it just made me realised you still don't trust me enough some-how. Which is okay with me. And idk why I typed this cause it has no link with what I'm gona say.
What I wanted to say was about the whole gender discrimination thingy.
I know that you're going through the whole gender discrimination process and maybe for your whole life, idk. But what I know is, even though they prefer your brother over you, it doesn't mean they can control everything. And its not like your friends are for nothing ya know. Like what I said a couple of weeks ago. And you can count on us and me, if you ever need anything. Its not like you must shoulder the whole bloody thing yourself. If you do, you can kill me 1st, cause I haven't done enough to make you feel like you can share the burden with me. And I don't mind dying, cause I sucked at it, and everything. So yah, I know you ain't going to feel any better after reading this, and I know the ones who can probably cheer you up are your friends and your entertainers but not me. So I hope they cheer you up soon...
And don't feel gender discriminated, just live life as it is and when you're living without your parents, you'll feel much much "lighter".

/edit
Before I forget, happy birthday Mutiara haha. No more 13.99 yrs old already lol.
Grow up lah. HAHAHA.
I posted this at 12am
Feel honoured okay!

its not like i don't know how you feel, and i'm not cheering you up. its just that... i can't seem to do it right, thats why my confidence is all gone... and not doing anything that you wished i would have done...

2008-12-07T00:04:00.002+08:00

Today kinda tired, but don't feel like sleeping yet hahaha.
Okay so went to the airport at around 11
Then when we were there we checked the flight, it was like, 0049 -.-
We went there so early! And gosh i was tired from the chalet =x
So yaah, slept on my way there lol.
Then went to bk 1st, ate till 12+?
Then went back to t1.
My bro's friends' parents were there too, waiting haha.
Well, we sat down and they started talking, i just kept examining whether the flight landed alr a not.
Then like it was past 0049 -.-
the flight haven't land lol, then it finally landed at 1.
Then not enough leh, must delay some more, at 1.15 then people started coming out, by 1.25 then my bro came out haha.
I thought he grew fatter and his voice got change LOL.
Then after that waited for papa to end work, around 1.40++
took a cab back home, i slept again.
This time i slept like pig lah, reached my hse there alr i still dunno leh, i was still sleeping. LOL
Then came back switched off the comp and went to sleep arnd 2.45

Okay then woke up in the morning at 8.45?
Valy late >< I usually wake up at 7+? =x
Okay was suppose to meet huixiu at 11.
Then when i reached whitesands alr, she say meeting time change to 11.45 lol.
Ohyaah, jekee was late for the 1st time today too. HAHAHA.
Then huixiu reached at 12+ -.-
Even if she change time still late ah, pro lah she.
Then took the mrt to city hall to esplanaRade. :D
Wanted to go the library there to find score haha.
huixiu wanted duets for flute, we look for so long never find anything then finally decided to use the search function. CTRL+F. LOL.
Joking lah, we went to use the computer, hahaha. 1st time found alr, but never take down the no. so jekee went back to take down the no. :P
Then finally decided on 1 duet that she found lah, but then rights cannot borrow cause its score, and only PREMIUM members can borrow.
Oh yah before that got 1 very funny thing.
We didn't know that scores cannot borrow mahs, so we tried to borrow it. Then they don't allow us to use ez-link card, and only jekee has the library card so use his.
Then when we insert his card rights, got fine. LOL.
Fine of 0.90 for overdue book . HAHAHA.
Then he was like whinning don't wana pay lorhs, then we went to pay the fine haha, after that went back to borrow the book again. Then the machine say " This item cannot be borrowed, please check with the information counter. " LOLLLL
Jekee wasted his 90 cents and he was complaining and whinning lol.
Then went to photocopy the scores, and then after that went to bugis street.

Okay at bugis street i was totally lost lah, anyhow walk de. Then went to shops after shops, nothing really caught our eyes lah. -.-
Except for huixiu the flower shirt -.-
And jekee is the long sleeve shirt, which i bought. lol.
They actually wanted me to buy short pants, but i dun want, cause i find it looks weird lahs haha.
Then bought jeans instead. Got treble clef on the back leh! I didn't know until huixiu told me hahaha.
Kayy, so went to bedok next, huixiu wanted to go look for her bf but she doesn't know where to go, so in the end we went back to pasir ris. Whoo, i slept like pig liddat -.-
Reached tamp i also didn't know cans -.-
okay so went to CS.
Went to buy flowers for honeyy. o.o
And bought 3 red roses haha.
Then after that went to the pharmacy and got something for jekee's leg. very bad fall lol. Wait i didn't laugh, not like some people *coughscoughs*
Okay then took 292 to the changkat cc. Weeeeee~ didn't get lost, but ALMOST did, at least for me lah, cause i sotong mah. =x
Jekee and huixiu didnt get lost can, i told them to alight at the wrong stop tskkk. silly me =x

Reached changkat cc alr then went up to the 4th floor to find honeyy. haha.
The lift got something wrong one cans haha.
Then got bamboo to help ask ask honeyy out. LOL.
Sorry sorry ! ><
Didn't know you were in a rush D:
Then we went back down.
Honeyy's atire was a bit weird haha, top was big and pants fit her very well, shoes were big too.
haha, but she still looks cute lah. :D
Then started the concert haha. Keep out of tune ah lol.
Then the 1st song i watch honeyy rights, then i compare her hand to her seniors hand. They like 1 off beat 1 down beat. LOLLLL.
But at least never go out of tune like.... *coughssssssssss*
Then it was like freaking cold cans lol. Was shivering like idk some mad person. -.-
And as if i not mental enough alr =x
So went to the toilet hahaha. Must pai dui leh. LOL!
Then after that went to find honeyy again haha.
And her senior was guessing who i am lol~
Then she don't wan take picture with me, she go take with her friends tskkk.
She don't care me alr. D:
Then she suddenly run off to tune cause starting again alr lol.
So we went back in haha.
Cold ahhahhahh! hahaha.
Then reached the end. LOL.
Freaking hilarious i tell you.
After they played their last song, fenyong, there was supposed to be an encore song, a chinese new year song, but after they played rights, no one shouted encore. HAHAHA.
So the mc asked us if we wanted an ecore. LOL.
So damn paiseh and funny hahahahahaha.
Kayy then after that went out to wait for honeyy while she changes back and packs and do what she wants to do lol.

Then headed to the tamp bus interchange and took a bus back to central haha.
then huixiu bf came lol, then went to central there to eat. But honeyy has to go home, haha.
So i went back with her, and finally she lets me carry her instrument lol.
She like treat her boyfriend more precious then her boyfriend lah. HAHAHA. weee, im not making any sense lol.
Then went back with her hahaha, hope she's okay lah, she walk home like her leg valy pain liddat. =x
lols, but she's cute lah, even though she looks crippled :P
Then went "home" and weee, she didn't get scolded by her mama hahahaha, i also happy. LOL.

Then while i was reaching home rights, my mama called me saying there's no food at home and told me to eat out and i have no money! And i still owed huixiu 10 and jekee 5 bucks lah.
Dammmmmmit -.-
Lucky my cos was there and we went to eat at the kopitiam lol.
Sorry ask you help me do so many things ah hahaha. ( to my cos :P )
Then went home hahaha.
Mama nagged about my clothes again, as usual but neh minds, don't care used to it alr. lol.
So here i am now posting and hate blogger like shitzx like that -.-
Kayy nvm, feeling sleepy shall sleep soon.
Honeyy's still hyper lol. Tskkk, waste on rotting *shakes head*
*sighs
LOLLLLL. :D
Iloveyou lahs honeyy hahaha.

2008-12-05T11:31:00.003+08:00

Back from chalet :D
It was fun. LOL. okkay..
So woke up in the morning and went there, saw iman, esther poh and roy.
Then waited awhile, and cause needed a person above 18 to collect the key, we went to www 1st while esther yap called her mum.
So after putting our bags and everything rightttts, we went to the long long lazy river 1st.
1/4 of the ride was no rain.
2/4 of the ride it started drizzling.
3/4 of the ride started raining heavily.
4/4 of the ride thunderstorm -.-

Then some people happy lorhs, say want see how to play in this type of weather, in the end i cannot play lols. kay lah :P Joking only haha.
Then after that went back to play handiplus, (idk correct spelling a not) hohoho, this time i smart, wore jeans :D
Then hohoho, roy hit valy pain, uben also hit valy pain, but LUCKY i wore jeans hahaha. :D
If not seriously i macham mati alr. =x
Then after that went pasir ris park looking for honeyy.
hahaha, then like no one was there, then i ran into kenny. He was also holding an umbrella, but was smaller then mine :P ( i took zhengrong's one lol)
So we were told they at mac, then went there haha.
Kenny's sense of direction isn't very good either, he thought mac was at the resort there LOL.

So walked all the way to mac hahaha, then sat there. 2/2 a lot of people noisy noisy, but its nice lah. hahaha. at least quite a lot of people came o.o
so was sitting alone lahh, then honeyy came and talk to me hahaha. she's sweet lah. :P

So I helped them carry a few things all the way to the pit. HAHAHA.
my shoes valy the quiet ah. hahahahahaha.
kay that place was hella muddy -.-
And i was wearing slippers! not sandals. haha, new eh? :P
cause got 2/9 chalet mahs, lazy wear sandals ah =x
Okay back to the muddy thing, after that used toilet paper to clear the pit. hahaha.
then tried to start the fire.

The fire must hate us manszxzxzxzxzx.
That bloodeh fire don't want to light up lahhh -.-
The powder also won't burn lol. Stuuuuupid thing.
But in the end also can start the fire and cooking stuffs.
And my friends take a long time to cook, so i didn't try one :P
Besides i only ate one half-cooked chicken wing and don't wana eat alr. lol.
So was freakkkkking hungry.
Ohohoh, and honeyy waited valy long for yonling to come back cause her specs and wallet was with her.
So in the end when i send her home rights, she got scolding from her mama D:
Then she's flooded with chores -.-"
so she can't go out tskkkkk.
cheer up lah kay. :D

Then after that went back to the chalet, bathed and went to sleeeeeep. hahaha.
slept for 1 hour only. LOL.
Then woke up and went to mac, ate stuffs.
Then went back. stayed at the pit there and played cards.
Then after a while esther complain hungry so we started bbq-ing at arnd 3 or 4. in the morning. LOL.
We 1st one ah. HAHAHA.
Then stopped around 5 bahs, then we all went to sleep, we actually wanted to watch sunrise de, but everyone was tired so yaah.
Then slept till 9, hahaha.
Before we slept i was laughing like some mad person lol. Gawd.
kay never mind, then after that errrrrrr.......
wait i thinking........
woke up at 9, then ernest, uben and the cpl still sleeping, so decided not to wake them and went outside to play stress with zhengrong haha.
Played for arnd 30mins then tried to wake them up .
After that packed and even though we were supposed to check out at 1030, we left around 11. LOL.
So much for me waking up early. And zhengrong went MIA when we were leaving lol. Weird.
kayy so rushed back home just to use the comp for something :O
Going out soon alr, going to meet some people~ for movie. haha.
and honeyy don't want go out with me lorhhs, go out with friends haha, kay lah, nvm...
cause likeeeee. i know how huixiu felt ytd lorhhs.
see esther and roy at the chalet then like... honeyy not with me ah.
miss her like idk what lahh =x
seriously lorrhhs, even though i just saw her a few hours ago, but still =x
miss her like some mad person alr -.-
hahaha, i love her lah. :D
kay nvm... shall stop posting and find something to do, and gosh, i'm still a bit tired lol. and retarded :P

2008-12-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

Went for band today, not really in a good mood. Seriously. =x
Mood was horrible, shitty, don't know what got into me -.-

Then yaah, celestine is a bully. Big big bully. :D
Then went for band yahyahyah , practiced canon in d. errr... was okay lah, kinda expected since, well its the 2nd time we practiced that song. I only didn't get 1 bar, which was enough to kill all of us lah, but still =x
okay never mind, after that supposed to have com meeting de. To make banner. But the banner made alr. So didn't stay. Then they said they want to discuss the cheer, but I don't wana stay back, so I just went to honeyy's void deck and wait, at 1. hahaha, waited there for arnd 30mins, and i saw one guy. He looks so much like me ( PERSONALITY WISE ) cause he was waiting for somebody and he seems panicky. :D
hahaha, then when that girl he was waiting for appeared his face full of smiles LOLLLL. That's so me. HAHAHA. But seriously, that did happen lah -.-

Okay then walked with honeyy to schooool. hohoho, sorry for pushing you lah. :D But funny and fun. LOL.
ohohoh, and sorry for pulling your clip, but then rights, your hair "qiao qi lai" very cute lah. hahaha.
eh shit. i can't stop hahaha-ing like some people who just bullied me D:
Tio influenced alr, but she bully me! D:
ayes, don't care.

I wana go off nownownow! But got some stupid download that needs 6hrs and 30mins.
Bloodeh hell, and now its 9.00 pm.
means... i needa stay awake till 3.30am. and I needa go to whitesands at 8.00 am tml.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~

2008-12-01T21:06:00.003+08:00

phoo... back from marina barrage. LOL.
went there dunno for what one lols, serious.
then after we went through the exhibition hall we went to play with water. HAHAHA.
I was totally wet. seriously. but omg so fun. haven't had that much fun in years =x
shit i sound old, gaaaah.
honeyy should have gone lahhs, it was fun. its worth getting your ass out of your house hahaha.
shit, im feeling feverish now -.-
and there's band tml gaaaah. i don't feel like going, not a single bit. =x

2008-11-30T05:28:00.001+08:00

hohoho, yesterday went to expo to get my new lappy :D
Its a nice black colour hahaha.
Anyways it isnt something that ex like 2k++ or isit like so hceap below 500.
around the mid 1k+?
i havent really tested it out yet, so its just a trail period now hahaha.
hopefully it doesn't turn out so bad :P
and people with long nails like me hard to type using the keyboard fast ah lols.
yes i'm using my lappy to type it now, and its like 5 in the morning -.-
okkay, anyways i only slept for 3 hours and doing my tuition hw as i go along.
so yahh, uhmm....
went out 2 days with honeyy, huixiu, jekee to blade.
hahaha, damn funny.
shan't elaborate.
but seriously, i have an anching arm and sore butt.
i can't sit on my chair without feeling pain -.-
don't laugh. not funny lol.
okay so i'm supposed to meet honeyy later hahaha, hope she ain't going to be released late again.
and am i tired or what...
now downloading everything into the comp, i wondered if i had forgotten anything o.o

2008-11-27T21:59:00.004+08:00

lalala~
lalala~
lalala~
lalala~

point step, point step, step step.

lalala~
lalala~
lalala~
lalala~

turn around point step, point step, step step whirlll.

fuck i need to get C > B outta my head before i turn crazy.

2008-11-26T10:13:00.003+08:00

Didn't manage to finish my homework again.
left alot of questions blank cause idk how to do LOL.
and uhmm... going to leave the house now.
and i've been thinking of something.
to prevent from myself of thinking so much, i've came up with an EQUATION. LOL.

okay i know thats totally random but here goes:

To A,
B < C
B =/= C

However to B,
A > C

So i must remember:
B < C
B =/= C
A > C

thats all. hahahahahaha, im such a phailure.

2008-11-26T07:40:00.001+08:00

Came online early in the morning to see if there was anything for me...
guess there was none.
so yah, kinda expected though.
shall start doing my homework now.

Cried to sleep. as if tears were lullabies.

Sounds familiar? =x

2008-11-25T23:54:00.004+08:00

Today my bro went off to japan le, hmmm....
what happened earlier in the day i shan't elaborate bahhs. lazy ah. lols.
wish him a safe journey ahead haha.
and i saw nicole goh today.
she changed a lot too. last time she quiet one, but i seriously was more quiet. LOL.
then now she more "noisy" a bit, but now i also seriously more noisy then her. LOL.
okay, so this means that people changeeee. haha.
mm... lucky im not like the past, if not like she waved to me, i wouldnt wave back and be anti-social haha. okay anyways er... kay lah. idk what to say liao.
just that i feel like my life is an EPIC PHAIL, after reading your blog.
so yaah, idk what to think or say to comfort myself, shall go emo in some cornerrrr. lalala~
cause like, no matter how much i do, or TRY to do, i can never make it. i tried many times liao, but like, no use ah. cause no one appreciates it, nor notices it ah.
other can do it without fail, i try so hard and yet still can't do it. why arr?
i tried my best already and this is the result i get? why?
my is life so unfair to me, and i know i shldn't complain, cause most people would just shoot me right back. but seriously why? people wana burn down coral, i wana burn down myself.
you're always so happy when i'm not there, and never that happy when im there =x

2008-11-24T22:00:00.003+08:00

Not in the mood to blog about today anymoree...
honeyy's having a terrible day ><
so yahh, not really have the mood to do anything now...
got band tml...
don't feel like going already...
want to try to find a way to cheer honeyy up, gaaaah, im such a gone case.

A note to honeyy:

Boyfriends' are not just for display, or just for you so that you can poke them and tickle them. They also have other uses besides those. Hugs and kisses are another example. Another one is the use of the ears. We have ears so that we can listen to you all rant and cry your hearts out to us. Our ears are not just for display too. And we too have emotions. You can't expect us to not feel anything when you all are sad and down. I know you know that you think we can't really experience how you are feeling. That's true, we don't know how you feel, but, we can feel how you feel. Like when you're happy, I'm also happy. When you're sad, I'm also sad. That's what emotions are for, for a better understanding of each other, so we can cheer each other up, or open up to each other and not to keep burdens to yourself. We also want to share your burden, if not all, I want. I don't want to be someone who " don't care" about you, cause I do. I don't want to be someone that doesn't do anything while my honeyy is experiencing all the bad things all by herself and I do nothing. I don't wana be like that. I want to be someone whom you can trust and someone close to you. I know you don't like to talk about personal matters, nobody does. But isn't better if someone else shares your burden? Even if its by a little, you will feel more at ease, and at least know there's someone who will always be there for you even if your whole world collapses. So I hope I can be someone you trust and not just a display set. Cause I don't want you to suffer alone, infact, I don't even want you to suffer at all...
My heart aches, to see you like this. And if you think I'm joking or just trying to make you happy, no I'm not. I'm speaking from the bottom of my heart.

And this one is for honeyy's mama -.- : (Like she'll read )

I just don't understand you can. In what way is honeyy not a good daughter? She listens to you, at least most of the time. You can't expect her to listen to EVERYTHING you say. She's not you. And please don't make her like you. She's she, and you're you. She's fine the way she is right now and I love her very much thank you. So what if she's weaker in her studies even if its by a little. Does that mean you get the right to control her life? And keep scolding her like some I don't know what? She's been putting up with your nonsense since she's young. Do you even know what she's experiencing right now? Being her mama, I think you don't even know her favourite colours don't you? How long have you not sat with your daughter and talk to her nicely about everything else that you DON'T have to comment about. So what if she gets into 3/1 and ITE. You should support her and not keep shooting her, thats what parents should do, don't they? I seriously hope you'll read this, and I know you won't understand shit. But hell, I've said my piece. Go reflect on what you've done for your daughter besides what you're SUPPOSED to do. Raising her up as a child is the responsibility of a MOTHER. But controlling her life when she's a teenager ISN'T the way its SUPPOSED to be. Times are different now, and I know you're still living in the past. So give it up and move on. Don't think just because you raised her, she must listen to everything you say. Like I said, she isn't you, and she has her own things and dreams she want to do. She doesn't want to be a second you, so give it up, give her some space, and let go.

I don't feel any better even after writing longlong stuffs gaah -.-

2008-11-23T22:22:00.003+08:00

Hmm... let's see, i couldn't really remember what i wanted to post today.
well i woke up around 7 today and started playing maple!! I'm joking -.-
I started using the comp and started finding some stuffs.
after that about 9 i started doing the tuition homework. 1st time my table was filled with that many maths worksheets. LOL.
Serious!
then it was like in a mess, and i chionged my homework till around 1030, then had my breakfast, so lateee.
i woke up at 7, had breakfast 3 hrs later ><><
kay choy! touch wood.
but seriously that was one of the NOT SO NICE coldness i experienced -.-
then went back homeeeee.
tml there's woodwinds outing, at seoul garden.
hmm... never went there to eat before though haha.
kay bye, going to sleep liao.
kinda tired. :p

ohoh and before i forget, which i almost did.
wishing everyone good luck on your appeal results tml kay?
esp you honeyy. jiayous. :D

2008-11-23T01:03:00.003+08:00

hmm... how long have i not blogged? lols.
kinda lazy ah, hahaha.
have been running to honeyy's house lately.
i dun think i can do that again though :p
ohkay, and i really need a planner now D:
i keep getting my dates mixed up gaah, so many things going on during the holidays.
and i thought i would be free, tskkk.
there's still tuition tml, and i havent done the homework, and its like freaking manyy D:
its matrix and simultaneous equations tskkk.
lazy do ahh, tml wake up then do.
besides now is around 1am, must be out of my mind to start doing maths now -.-

anyways i lazy to blog about what happened today ah, lols.
my cos just came back from Australia, and he didn't get me anything -.-
but neh mind lah, next time remember not to get him anything also when i go overseas. (IF)
lol, im so evil hahaha.
anyways, had dinner at swensens. finally, like a few months. lol, excluding the treat. hahaha.
then uhmm, was damn damn damn full. lol.
idk what else to blog about. D:
tml someone help me with my homework kayy.
the a maths matrix is seriously going to kill my brain cells. ><

kay nothing else to blog about le, meeting honeyy tml though haha.
wonder what she'll be wearing, so many new clothes tsktsktsk.
haha, kay byebye.

2008-11-19T21:36:00.003+08:00

Just reached home from tuition, hoho, super uber hungry noww ><
Like 4hours of tuition non-stop. no toilet breaks too, gaaah. my head is like filled with matrix. -.-
Dammmnnn... kay, nvm. shall go find something to eat after this.

Got another quiz for me by esther -.-""

1. Who's the person that tagged you?
Esther Yap.

2. Relationship between you and him?

Good friends?

3. 5 impressions?

Nice. A bit emotional. Laughs a lot. Comes up with weird ideas. Random? LOL.

4. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?

Hmm.... idk. LOL.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?

Iloveyou :D

6. Characteristics i like about myself.

I'm MINGXUAN :D

7. Characteristics i hate about myself?

I'm not perfect D: Even though nobody is LOL.

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?

Stop invading my friends you arsehole -.-

9. What do people feel about you?

Idk, ask them?

10. Your crush?
honeyy,honeyy. :D

11. Most ideal person you wanna be?

Er... no idea. o.o

12. Pass this to 10 ppl. * Not going to pass to 10 people, just listing down the names cause I don't feel like tagging anyone to do this quiz hahaha.*

1.yunxuan

2.huixiu

3.eileen

4.mutiara

5.jody

6.elaine

7.zhafri

8.jolin

9.edric

10.darrel

13. if 5 & 7 were together? ( jody and zhafri )

They don't know each other HAHAHA. But if they were... hmmm... hard to imagine. LOLLL.

14. Who does 5 like? ( jody )

I dont know.

15. What colour does 9 like? ( edric )

I don't know also -.-"

16. Say smth about 8. ( jolin )

Er... random. LOL.

17. Who is 2? ( huixiu )

super-pig. :O

18. Talk about 3. ( eileen )

she's nice, and a good friend? hahaha.

19. Who is 10's best friend? ( darrel )

ming rui? o.o

20. Who's the sexiest among all 10?

yunxuan lahh. HAHAHA. :D

21. What colour does 4 like? ( mutiara )

lime green?

22. Is 4 single? ( mutiara )

er... idk leh. LOL. probably single.

23. Yr relationship with 1? ( yunxuan )

my honeyy. :D

24. Are 5 & 6 best friends? ( jody and elaine )

if they meet, i think hell yes. LOL.

25. 9's surname? ( edric )

Lian?

26. 7's nickname? ( zhafri )

Idk LOL.

27. Say smth to 8. ( jolin )

Next time see me say hi! LOL.

28. Say smth to help 9? ( edric )

gimme some of your brain juice. LOL.

29. Who does 1 admire? ( yunxuan )

she doesn't know, so how i know? LOL.

30. Where does 1 live? ( yunxuan )

pasir ris uhs.

31. 10 of them know who you like?

I think so? I mean its so damn obvious -.-"

32. Say smth to 6 when you see her? ( elaine)

Hi! :D

33. 10's spuose? ( darrel )

idk lehh. LOL.

Tskk, today ahh, before i went to tuition horrs, go and help *coughs* honeyy, paint the notice board.
But then i paint like 1 part super thick then 1 part so thin. LOL.
So its like... hmmm.... idk what lah. LOL. And and and the wood came out ONLY WHEN I PAINTED it.
So bad righttts. Tskkkk. D: D: D: D: D:
the board dun like me D:
Then tried folding straw hearts.
gawd i cmi one. LOL.
Even honeyy wanted to vomit blood already. hahaha.
but overall today's nice lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
LOL, seriously. :D:D:D
iloveyou kayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
now im bored and hungry D:

2008-11-19T11:03:00.002+08:00

Rules & regulations :-Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/ habits/ little know facts as well as state the rules clearly.At the end, you need to choose 10 names to be tagged & list their names.

10 weird things / habits / little known facts of mine }

1) I like to eatttt. :D
2) I sleep very little hours everyday -.-"
3) I like taking photos, but I don't have any photos. LOL.
4) I like going to other people houses to explore their rooms :D
5) I like band. seriously. LOL.
6) I miss my primary school friends. D:
7) I tried more games then you would've imagined. :O
8) I keep very long finger nails, cause I'm lazy to cut HAHAHA.
9) I like my friends, seriously. again. LOL.
10) I love honeyy. This one is not serious. :D This is a fact. HAHAHA.

Tagged by Jody hahaha, and yah, i like A BIT of quizzes? LOL.

And to the 10 people, if you feel like doing it just do, cause.
So many people complaining to me tskk.
That I give them quiz to do, then they lazy. LOL.
So not tagging anyone.

Hmm.. I'm lazy to blog about ytd, besides someone don't want me to blog about yesterday. HAHAHA.
So shall not blog :D
Band is having holidays now, but i feel my holidays are still quite occupied though, but neh mind. I'll work it out eventually.

ttfn. :D

2008-11-17T20:36:00.005+08:00

Hmm.. today was pretty okay... well not good not bad either hahaha.
Let's see. i went for band early in the morning today, then after that had sectionals. Well, i sort of know how to play overture no. 1 correctly already, the rhythm. and well, merry widow still can bah the ending.
Anyways after that.. er... went for lunch, ate with the section again. hahaha, shared alot of things, and the chocos i bought was nice :D:D hor? hahaha.
Then laughed a lot as well, went back for main band after that, didn't get shot today, but the tubas, did. and i teached gillian today, but she still got it wrong, i feel kinda bad D:
like i never teach properly ><
then had instrument maintence. lol, made renee very angry.
but seriously i didnt mean it, sorry =x
then after that went to eat dinner at mac with june. all the other people pangseh-ed me. wa rao RAWR.
then tried the mega mac spicy. hahaha, it cant fit inside my mouth. LOLLL.
and the veggies were dropping all over the place.
so i ate the burger as though im 9 years old and below hahaha.
and i wana bring home the bari and practicee... but it cant fit inside the bus.
but i dun wana bring home the tenor either D:
honeyy tell me what to do please? D:
I miss you a lot laaah, and i'm glad you enjoyed your trip to desaru.
at least you managed to see the fireflies that you were hoping for hahahas.
and you bought a lot a lot of things LOL.
i wonder if you bought anything for me, tskk. i bet you would say " wait longlong kay . " hahaha.
i'm talking to myself again tskk, see lah make me miss you so muchhh.
not fun horrrs, faster faster faster. idk faster do what lah, but fasterrrr.
make me miss you lesser laaahh T____T
No blockquotes today, im lazy hahahaa :D

2008-11-16T18:20:00.003+08:00

Tagged by esther to do the quiz, shall do since I got nothing else to do, cause someone's on holiday hahaha. :P

1. What have you been doing recently?
Missing lots and lots of people. D:

2.Do you ever turn yr cell phone off?
Once in a blue moon.

3.What happened at 10am today?
Er.. Can't remember.

4.When did you last cry?
A few days ago? I forgot. Honeyy, when did I last cried?

5.Believe in fate/destiny?
Some-what, not totally though.

6.What do you want in your life now?
I want honeyy to not get scolded by her mama.

7.Do you carry a umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
Er... carry umbrella. hahaha.

8.Whats yr favourite thing to have on your bed?
My pillow? Thats the only thing on my bed. LOL.

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
Shorts. o.o

10.Whats the nicest thing in your inbox?
Honeyy says she misses me :D

11.Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Nope, simple is good. :D

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from someone?
Er... nope. o.o

13.What was the last movie you caught?
HSM3.

14.What are you proud of?
Able to play the saxophone.
And having an insane girl as my girlfriend :D

15.What does your oldest text msg in your inbox says?
Er... sth Jodie msg-ed me about long long time ago about band. LOL.

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
Deep purple medley. HAHAHA.

17.Do you have any nicknames?
Mx? what else. LOL.

18.What does your last receive text msg says?
-Private- :D:D

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
1am o.o

20.Are you currently happy?
Yes veryyy. :D

21.Who gives you the best advice?
Honeyy? And maybe myself. LOL.

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight frm the can?
Nope, i don't even know whats whipped cream. LOL.

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Nic? Asked about tuition today.

24.Is something bugging you now?
Er.. yaah. D:

25.What/who was the last person to make you laugh?
Laugh ah? Haven't laughed for today, as for ytd, honeyy i guess. :D

26.Do you wear toe socks?
What's that. LOL.

27.Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Honeyy D:

28.Have you ever had your heart broken?
yaah, some point back then, but now its mended :D

29.What annoys you most in a person?
Er... idk, when it comes i'll know.

30.Do you have a crush on someone?
Yeah, on honeyy :D

31.Have you ever done cocaine?
What's that ? O.o

32.What is the colour of yr room?
Er... light blue?

33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion bucks?
If I don't get caught, maybe.

(theres no question 34 ?!)

35.Who was the last person to lie in yr bed?
Me o.o ( I know what the question was asking *coughs coughs*

36.Who was the last person to hug you?
Never got hugged for this year alreadyy... haiiz D:

37.Did you see the last person you kissed recently?
Haven't kissed anyone in 14 years either D:

38.Do you have a life?
Obviously yess. -.-

39.Have you ever thought someone died,when they didnt?
Not really? Why the hell would I think like that!

40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
No profile song? Lazy put ah. hahaha.

41.Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
Honeyy!! You know right? :D

42.Last time you smiled?
Todayy. :D

43.Have you changed this year?
A lot a lot. My personality and everything else. But its for the better, and i know it. :D

44.What are you listening to right now?
Walk away- High school musical 3

45.Are you talking to someone while doing this?
Nahh. honeyy ain't online D:

46.Do you walk with your eyes closed or open?
Open lah -.-"

47.Is there a quote you live by?
Er... not really...

48.Do you want someone you can never have?
Nope...? Cause I already have that special someone :D

49.Have you ever played an instrument?
I play the saxophone. LOL.

50.What was the worst idea you’ve had this week?
Er... idk seriously.

51.What were you doin last night at 11pm?
Playing computer games and sms-ing honeyy. :D

52.Are you happy with your love life right now?
Very happy? :D

53.What song best describes your love life?
No idea, ask honeyy. hahaha.

54.Does the person know you like him/her?
yaaahh... right honeyy? LOL.

55.Who always makes you laugh?
Everybody? I laugh at everything please. LOL.

56.Do you speak other languages other than english?
Er... chinese? Malay? Hokkien? o.o

57.Favourite websites?
Honeyy's blog. LOL.

58.Whats your middle name?
Idk ? If i have i also seriously dunno hahaha.

(theres no question 59?!)

60.What do you think you are like?
Er... lots of things. Negetive ones, dun want to type out...

61.Who will you choose to die with?
I rather die myself.

62.Where have you been today?
Er.. downtown, and stayed at home lorh.

63.What game do you play often?
Er... A game that consists of using the fingers, right honeyy? HAHAHA.

64.Who are you missing now?
Honeyy, seriously. very seriously. really really. I miss you lahh T___T

65.If you had to choose between your friend or your lover which will you choose?
Why must choose! Can't i have both D:

66.What are you doing right now?
This quiz, and its quite entertaining actually lol.

67.Which primary school are you from?
Meridian primary school. why? o.o

68.Name 3 colours that you like?
Er... Crimson, lime green and yellow.

69.What emotion do you like to show?
Happy, wait, anyone seen me sad before? HAHAHA.
*Emotionless isn't counted as sad. LOL*

70.What is your life to you?Life?
I don't get the question.

71.If you have something bothering you what will you do?
Complain to honeyy. LOL.

72.Who did you last chat on msn today?
Nobodyy.... Honeyy is on holiday D:

73.Who do you admire the most?
Er... idk leh. =x

74.Which month were you born in?
Feb. o.o

75.How are you feeling right now?
Really sad, cause I'm missing someone like nobody's business -.-

76.What is the time now?
6.38pm

77.What kind of person do you think of the one who tagged you?
Esther, hmm... very emotional and open? But she's nice lah. haha.

78.What colour did you use to dye your hair?
I never dyed my hair before. Guai rights? :D

79.Why are you doing this test?
Er.. cause Esther pleaded me to do so. *pointstobox*

80.What do you do when you are moody?
Complain to honeyy, if its personal just cry? Idk lah.

81.At which age do you wish to get married?
No idea?

82.Who is more important to you?
Honeyy? o.o

83.If today was the last day of your life what would you do?
I will just die? cause I didn't get to see honeyy/ talk to her even today. =X
how to die happily...?

84.Who is the person you trust the most?
honeyy? but she lies to me sometimes RAWR.

85.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes, I saw that before...

86.If you had a dream come true what would it be?
The dream I told you about honeyy. hahaha.

87.What is your goal for this year?
No idea...

(theres no question 88?!)

89.What feeling do you love the most?
The feeling of being loved. :D

90.Do you think its Global Warming now?
Yupp, i did my stars project on it whattttt. LOL.

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
Heartbroken and jealousy.

92.You like doing quizzes?
Yup, just that no one really tags me to do them... D:

93.Do you believe in God?
Not really....

94.Who cares for you the most?
Idk? Ask the people around me... =X
I hope honeyy does though :D

95.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
A lot of things, honeyy is 1 good example hahaha :D

96.What will you bring when you fight?
I don't fight. If i do, i'll bring my legs, to run away. LOLLL.

97.What have you regretted doing your whole life?
For being anti-social for the past 11 years of my life.

98.What would you do if nobody cared for you?
I'll die. Seriously.

99.What would you do if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
Cry my heart out? There's nothing else ican do whattt.... D:
Honeyy please don't two-time me. ><>The 8 people
1. yunxuan
2. huixiu
3. anita
4. eileen
5. yonling
6. mutiara
7. jody
8. grace

Phew finally done, and i bet people will complain to me they don't wana do the quiz one HAHAHA.
Standard de. heehees.

Honeyy, faster come back kayy, I seriously miss you a lot a lot D:
You have fun don't forget me horrs, hahaha.
Come back safely too.
Iloveyou :D

2008-11-14T21:30:00.004+08:00

gaah, super tired now, cause i have been waking up at donkey hours just for band D:
i really need a break, 1 day will do, but there's band tml, and i'm waking up at 6++ again...
then sunday there's MAYBE tuition, new de, introduced by jodie. hahaha, so idk lah.
maybe no break, then monday have banddd again.
oh well, anyways for band today, in the morning after we moved the instruments back to the CDS, i was sweating like a piggg *oinkoink*.
my shirt was wettt D:
thats not the worst part, after that we had a little break and went for STATIC DRILLS, with our instruments.
hoho, and what instrument i hold ah? the baritone sax! yah, man. my neck was close to breaking hahaha.
and seriously i found out today, its not easy to play while marching D:

Okay, after that we tried out the set piece.
we chose overture no. 1.
i also think it was a better choice for us, cause i see overture no. 2. , i dun think we can make it either.
and yayyyy, we got tonghua the score liao, just havent give out only. so niceee. :D:D
but i bari ah, no melody, tskkk. oh well...
then had sectionals later on, sarimah came again after so long hahaha. so fast 1 year already. lols.
then practifced a bit of merry widow and went through just the beggining of overture no. 1.
then rushhhhed off to the airport -.-"

When i reached the airport i stank like ._.
seriouslyyy, D:
they should install showers in the airports. LOL. kayy, im just crapping.
anyways, went to send my cos off to Aus.
i was in my sch uniform, dam paiseh lorhhs. hahaha, kay nvm.
then after that went home, took bus, very very tired.
fell asleeeeep D:
then walked home, now postttting, and i wana sleep alreadyyy. D: *yawns*
neh mind, shall find something to keep me awakeeee.

oh yah, and honneyyy's going to desaru on sunday, so she wont be free tml D:
so i wont get to talk to her for 2days! D:
so sadddd. *criessss*
kayy, will miss you, have fun and hope you get to see your firefiles.
Remember to take pics horrr! :D

harharhar, guess what date today is againnnnn.
14ththththth. okay im sotttzx liao lol. idk why i put this one in a box though. kayy, im just plain bored, hahaha.
happy anniversary~~ :D
6th month liao, half a year lerr. So fast hahaha.
this month you made me cry a lot of timesss. D:
so bad rights, but i know i also got make you cry lah, so we even? LOL.
kayyy whatever im just crapping nowww.
so yaaah, this month got its downnns, and its ups.
like yesterdayyy. hahaha. yupp, i super enjoyed it, maybe you cant tell LOL.
so yaaah, hope you always stay happy kayys.
iloveyou, and always will hehe. x3

2008-11-12T22:15:00.002+08:00

Harharhar, changed blogskin again.
LOL, kay, I'm just bored lahh. D:
I don't like ebuddy. They sent messages so slowlyyy. D:
Haven't been posting much causeeee....
There's nothing to blog about? Can't think of anything just yet.
Anyways, there's Open house tml. Needa wake up early D:
So yaah, going to sleep soon after posting.
Kinda tired from editing the links and blogskin...

2008-11-10T22:35:00.001+08:00

I know I'm a totally boring person.
And you most of the time find me totally annoying and irritating ><
Cause I keep asking the same question over and over again.
I'm sorry...
Really... =x

2008-11-08T14:18:00.002+08:00

Ytd was very tired, so didn't post hmm....
Let's see...
Ytd I woke up in the morning around 6.45
Then mr wong msged me, telling me what he wanted during sectionals and wanted static drills.
okay, then after that we did static drills with the band. We split them into small groups. A few seniors teaching a few juniors. And just my luck to have stomach ache during that time -.-"
Anyways after the seniors finished the drills, got the juniors to stay back a while to do more drills.
So yaah, sorry lah juniors, not I want make you all do drills, like some sadist like that, but then, mr wong orders mahhhh.
After drills had sectionals. Yaah, falled the band in again. Then told them what mr wong sent me lahh, but then they were talking talking anddd talkinggg.
so when i read out everything just fall them outt.
Then had sectionals, waahh the band room was NOISYYY.
I cant hear the bass section at all lah tskk.
Then went to the entrance there to play lol. Cause there's exam going on, cannot go out and have sectionals. So we went to the shoe there. So much quieter!! LOL.
Okay, anyways, after that right went for lunch, then came back. woah freaking hottt.
Kayy, then had full band. mr wong shoot me till damm shuang lorhhs. ibrahim dunno de notes i kana shoot, then uhmm... the band dunno what to do for sectionals i also kana shoot. LOL.
But i dun really hate mr wong for shooting me lah, cause he dun shoot me, then shoot who sia lol.
kayy after band ended rushed to the POP performance with huixiu. we took the bus. wah damn stuupid lah we -.-
We take bus after the performance finish then JUST reach lehh. wa lao, so bad rights tskkk.
gaah, we were in uniform some more -.-
okay nvm, then took mr wong car to paya lebar mrt station with zarifah, yvonne, mostafa and huixiu. laughed a lot on the way lahh. 1st time go out with zarifah and yvonne they all.
and i never expect them to be like that one lorh HAHAHA. No offence. LOL.
serious lah, i didn't know. and i bet many others dunno also hahaha.
okkay. then after that went to eat at semei, talked a lot more, then went home.
reached home about 10+? and i was still in school uniform gawd -.-
okay then today going out later, attending sarimah's concert.
if i feel like blogging i'll blog bah hahaha.

2008-11-06T20:41:00.002+08:00

Somethings are better left unsaid... :D

2008-11-06T13:35:00.002+08:00

I so want to be *poke-ed* right now -.-
Crap, I'm feeling stuuuupid again.
Lots of things are running through my mind again.
These things just never stop, stuuuuupid!
stuuuupid! stuuuuupid! stuuuupid!
dumb! dumb! dumb!
ass! ass! ass!
kay w/e going off now.

2008-11-05T11:32:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was playing some game with yunxuan and dewey haha.
Minus dunno how many points, weird game lols.
Anyways now listening to the PPF-radio.
And doing some stuff to kill time.

What Your Burger Says About You

You are very gluttonous. Even if you're full, you'll still clear your plate.

You are likely a fairly picky eater. And you're secretly a little squeamish about some foods.

You are emotional. You have a big heart, and you tend to go for comfort foods.

You have trouble making decisions quickly. Everything looks good to you... especially at a restaurant.

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.

You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.

You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.

You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.

While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.

You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.

You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

This is very true, the lazy part. LOL.

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

You aren't the most visible one in your group, but that's okay.

You're always up for a good time or conversation.

And you stick with your friends no matter what. You're unbelievably loyal.

You may feel under appreciated - but it only seems that way! Your friends would be lost without you.

I really hope this is true...? ><

2008-11-04T20:45:00.005+08:00

I'm tired today, shall make this another short one *yawns*
Well, wanted to post ytd , but forgotten what happened, so neh mind hahas.
Today woke up early, went for band. Nic and Grace were already there when I reached, can't wait to get their psp back i guess? -.-
After that ran around and open the class rooms. I even opened 1 extra one lorhhs. Still not enough lehh. tskkk.
After that went for band. On the way to band rights, all the band members i see all give me the "happy face".
Cause it was 8.45 already, must fall in. Then they see me haven't reach then like happy happy cause won't get pump. LOL.
I rather wish mutiara had already fall them in when i reached lor, hahas, but she didn't so nvm lah.
Then went for sectionals, hmm.... sectionals was like ytd?
The 1st 2hr 30mins hardcore practice. Then last 30mins always slack one. LOL.
But can lahh, I know we got improve, as bass section lah.
Then uhmm... went for lunch, tskk. I open the instant noodle until the sauce was all over my hand -.- I damn stuuuupid lah, 1 instant noodle the sauce i also dunno how open, some more i pour the sauce into the noodle when there's the plastic inside. I didn't even notice! lol.
Lucky i pour the hot water halfway the uncle saw then help me take out.
Then he ask me change the water dispenser to the other one. Then i put there he press the hot water then the hot water scalded my entire finger lahh.
Damn pain cans wth. I was like " ow, ow, ow, ow, ow, ow, ow"
Okay after that went up to the highest floor to eat again lol. Forever the same, but lucky today i'm not their maid haha.
Then after that went to buy ice-cream LOL. Then everyone saw me like gimme the " wah so big liao still eat ice-cream face" .
but i just eat lahh, haha. then after that went back for band. uhmm... had band as usual. then after that ate dinner at kfc. hmm... then after that went home liao lols.
tml going to rp...gaah, i hope i dun sleep at the bus and then miss my stop ><

2008-11-02T22:49:00.003+08:00

Someone's happy today :D
Like 1st time play with your family hors? hahas.
Hope you'll have more fun times like this haha.
And why are perfumes so expensive ah? LOL.
-
Imissyou too.
See you soon yah? :D
ti amo x3

2008-11-02T21:06:00.001+08:00

Okay so changed skin, and uhm... my address?
I'm acting italian again lols.
Fan of hitman mahhs, cannot blame me :p
Lazy to change my box to fit the skin haha.
And I'm lazy to change skin again, relink me horrs. haha.
byes... there's band tml, going to sleep soon haha.

2008-11-02T00:53:00.003+08:00

ohh my goddd.
I'm super tired now, gaah. Just reached home, super duper tiredd.
No idea why I'm posting though, came online to check whether someone was online.
Okay anyways, today went for band as usual, yaah, then had to learn how to bounce the notes, damn it was hard. Sometimes I can't make any sound, then sometime too short, then too long. okay nvm, monday have sectionals, shall work it out. Then after that went to cavana. Ate with huixiu and gillian. Then went home, went out again. For boston brass thing. They were goooooood. Like really goood. omg.
And yaah, they were entertaining as well, they know how to interact with the audience. hahaha. lazy to post the exciting part, damn tired now gaah. my head is splitting, my leg is breaking, my arms are bleeding ( from previous wounds -.- ) and I'm thirsty and sleepy!! Shall go to sleep now, I feel so sick now... >.<

Sorry! I didn't know that I will be back home so late! D:
Don't know if you'll read this, but really I'm very very sorry!
I don't know whether your post was referring to me, but I still wanted to say sorry.
For not coming online >.<
I don't know how many times I apologised already, but I'm really really sorry!
Please don't be angry at me D:

2008-10-31T21:24:00.006+08:00

I'm bored, shall act hyper to see whether can make me non-bored.
New skinn. :D
Its some cartoon thingy lol. I find it cute! hahaha.
And i put my counter wayyyyy over at the top left corner. So isolated from the rest, I feel so bad cans LOL.
Arrrrnyways, let's start with yesterday's kidney disection workshop :D
Went to the workshop and firstly we were supposed to do a urine test! I know its so sudden LOL.
Then everyone was reluctant to do it, and their excuse was " no pee. " LOLLLL
So damn funny lah, hahaha. Well, I finished it 1st. yayyyy~
Then I went back and took the test. I got the pic, but dun want post today, lazy ah hahaha. My urine is very healthy~~ yayyyyyy~ (again) LOLLLL
Okay after that we did the kidney disection. We had to identify the parts 1st, then cut it.
Helped huixin to cut her's after I did mine. We were told to wear gloves. They stank can -.-
Anyways we had to wear them on, and started playing around with the kidney. hahaha. the kidney stank too -.-
Anyways, started after cutting explored a bit, then started playing with it. Cutting it like minced mat like that. Wenxuan cut it in a idk what way lol, which made is soooooo disgusting. Cool rights! HAHAHA ! :D
I also took a picture of the kidney, which I disected. Lazy upload ah, and i scared it might be too disgusting, later people dun dare come my blog already hahaha~
okkkay, then i suddenly want to start posting everything in the center starting from tml onwards! Cause its a new month? LOL.
No idea hahaha.
Then today woke up, feeling so bored that I actually went to y8 and played flash games. zomg lah, i told myself i would never be playing games from that website zzz...
went to darrel hse after that, to put dj max clazziquai into my psp.
Graphics are nice :D:D
on the way to the bus stop saw jody, she doesn't know where darrel house is hahaha!
She was also in uniform, like me LOL!
Anyways after that went for band, was about an hour early, so watched zhiwei ( cucumber ) and uben play basketball. Cucumber never change -.-
He still the same lol.
Even though i quite long never talk to him.
went for band after that. Mr wong was in a joking mood -.-
LOL. oh well, maybe not, he just wanted to tease me hahaha.
Okay then went to kfc again for dinner, and went home.
Tml have band lehhh. Must report by 7.45555555
So early tskkkkkk.
Dun want to wake up so early tml D:
Cause means I cannot sleep late today! Waraos. D:
RAWR ( learnt this HAHAHAHA )
Going off soon liao hahaha.

Happiiieee Haalllooooweeeeeeeeennnnn~~ :D
andandand
*coughs*
birdoggie i miss you D:
okay thats so random LOL

2008-10-27T00:58:00.002+08:00

I want to go skin hunting before I sleep, and today was boring, kept playing the PSP the whole day, cause no access to the Internet at my cos's place. His comp spoil ah.
Oh and the only thing I remembered was, during dinner, at my cos house, I was eating with papa. Then they got cable tv, so got a lot of channels we don't have mahs. Then suddenly got a comercial on HOTSHOT. Then I point to the screen say " That show very nice!" Then he say " F4 one ah?" Next got the commercial on Fated to love you. I said " That show very nice also! " Then he said " Where got people watch these type of show one, and every show is nice to you lah. " LOLLLL
Okay nvm, not funny, was crapping haha, talking to myself again~
Okay go find blogskin le tata~ :D
And a coackroach just climed up the window LOL
Full grown some more -.-
Its nice to be in love :D

2008-10-25T21:17:00.002+08:00

No title! Hehehe, someone taught me how to do it :D
I forgotten what I wanted to post yesterday, so shall edit this part?
/edit
Yesterday after band we stood outside the MRT station for very long, discussing about whether coming out tml a not lols.
By right I wasn't supposed to go out, cause my new Tv, Tv the shelf (idk what lah) and the wardrobe are coming. As I mentioned AGES ago, I threw away all my furniture -.-" So here are the new ones.
The dining table and the sofa are coming next week, and I have band the next week, hopefully it won't drag till late evening.
Anyways as I was saying, we discussed VERY VERY long and thought of all the stuuuupid possibilities that we could do today. Finally decided to go watch HSM3!
Then had conference at 8.00? Lasted for 30mins only, lols. I can't remember the last time I had conference besides the one I had with Amirul and Zhafri. Okay, then during that time planned out everything liao. Then started playing and playing, chatting and chatting ( ^___^ ), then went to sleep haha.
Today woke up very very early.
Like around 6++? No idea, forgotten already.
Started using the comp till 9.30
Then after that went to watch Digimon Data Squad! LOL~
I know i know, but wait! I was bored D:
After that watched a bit of pokemon then prepared to go out already.
Met Nisa at the bus stop, and she told me I was 2 mins late? -.-
Kay at least I wasn't late by 5 mins or what, cause the bus came after 1-2 mins after I reached.
Uhmm... after that walked to E!hub the staircase there, apparently we were the 1st ones there, and I told her that we're going to be late sia LOL. But expected lahh, Zhafri and Mutiara those type of people sure late one hahaha!!
-Suddenly remembers what I wanted to post ytd- * rushes back to type*
As I was saying, after walk a bit inside saw Nic, then he had to rush all the way to WS to get his Ez-link card done. So he left after me and nisa went to BK to have breakfast. And Zhafri told us we walked past him sia! LOL, anyways we ate breakfast then Mutiara came. Then we went to Mac after Nic came back cause Nic and Mutiara wanted to eat at Mac cause of the happy meal. They say very nice wors.
I didn't try though, then Nic got a Ben 10 figure while Mutiara got Powerpuff girl, the red one. LOL. Some more the head can be detached de, HAHAHA!!
Okay after that went to the Arcade! LOL, fun sia!
1st topped up the card with 6 bucks, then went to play. Mutiara wanted to play DDR ( Dance Dance Revolution) So I joined her. Wa lao, I damn noob can. I like lose ALL my life in EVERY song I play with her. Got 1 time more funny. Zhafri took 1 panel, I took 1, Nic/Amirul/Nisa took the other 2. So pratically 1 each. And we still lose to Mutiara sehs! LOL, and yes, our life was indeed all gone -.-" Then I went to try ParaPara~!
LOL, 1st time sehhs, haha. Its nice to play!! Except limited songs nia D:
And still, Mutiara was better then me in ParaPara also! Tskk, no fair! D:
Okay, nvms. Then went to the Cinema, was sweating~! LOL. Played too much le.
Oh yah, we also played the basketball. I and Amirul teamed up to play with Zhafri and Mutiara, we lost the 1st time. Then after that we played again. This time I teamed with Zhafri and played against Mutiara and Nic and Amirul. LOL. We trashed them hahaha! We won with over 100+ points! We broke the record on their machine, but we didn't break the record on our machine. Wasted sia!
Kay so went to watch HSM3! Shall not reveal anything, cause spoiler HAHAHA!
And I could say that the songs are more meaningful this time. Means got meaning de lah! lol.
Then after the movie we stood around so long discussing where to go -.-
Some wanted to go to the Beach, some wanted to go and play pool (:D), some wanted to go bowling, some wanted to go K-box-ing, and some wanted to go home -.-"
So idk lahh, then i stupid stupid go slide down the handle thing. Then hurt my small finger. Started bleeding -.-
Its like damn stupid lah, I slide down then never let go of my hand, then in the end my hand kana pulled down then the skin came off -.-
Still pain now lehs tsk!
So in the end walked from E!hub all the way to a playground! Next we went to the fitness corner...
The one that yunxuan brought me to when she went out with charlene and chiatying...
Okay went there and started playing like some retarded kid lol. I tried all the things? haha, I like the spinning one! I stand on the thing and spin myself! Just that I keep ALMOST fell off, scary D:
Then sat down discussed about what classes we wanted to get into next year, and what we wanted to be when we grow up. Mutiara was going " Marine biologist or Interior desinger!" hahaha, oh well. I still don't know.. I think I can't make it into Core Lit le, my lit seriously very lousy D: Going to go for Core hist... Then elective geog/lit depends on my mood on that day HAHAHA!
Then after that moved on to the next playground, it was near yunxuan's house. Sat down at the pavilion. Continued about where we stopped just now. Then suddenly Nisa's sister wanted to go to the toilet. So I brought them to yunxuan's house uhhs. Her mama was at home! Luckily I went away before she saw me hahaha! Close call :D
So went back and talked more, then when Nisa came back, talked even more LOL.
Then after that headed to the LAST playground, the fire-truck one! LOL.
Got something that stinks there, idk what. D:
Talked a bit, played psp a bit, then went off liao. Nisa had to go off, so she went off, then we walked to Izzat's house lol. Wanted to play badminton. :D
* And I know someone here hates badminton :D *
So we got him to bring down the rackets, it was 2v2.
After that 3v3 LOL!
Then went to the Mini-mart to get something to eat and drink, was damned thirsty!
Even now I still drinking water -.-"
Kay, then when I bought the cup noodle, that BLOODEH BUSTHIRD uncle say no hot water -.- Then sell cup noodle for what? Close down your shop lah! Atiitude like shitzx, people open awhile cannot ah! Not happy don't run store lah. -.-
Okay got carried away, so after that got Izzat to run back to his house to put hot water into the noodles for me, thanks Izzat and Izzat's mama :D
Then when I went up to have my "dinner" ( the cup noodles ), it was served in a plate! LOL, 1st time eating cup noodles in a plate cans. Some more Izzat's house is very nice! The design is nice, compliments the colours on the wall, and it gives a good modern yet comfortable feel. hahaha.
Okay while the others had burgers, I ate the snacks available, cause I told Izzat I didn't want the burger, cause you know, don't want trouble people too much, ask for hot water then still want burger =X
So didn't eat the burger and went for the snacks, finished 1 layer of pineapple tarts HAHAHA!! Means I still ate a lot LOL! So went off, didn't say thanks to Aunty, she looks absorbed in her show lol.
So thank Izzat and his mama now, " Thanks you!!"
Like they will see that hahaha.
So after that went home, Mutiara walked backed, Zhafri took the bus the other way, and I and Nic took the bus back to our West/east side. Forgotten -.-"
Then on the way back, discussed many many things about band.
The juniors, Mr Wong, and many more haha.
When I reached home my bro was hogging the comp, I couldn't use, so I went to bath instead, stank sia .LOL.
Then when I bathed come out shoo-ed him away hehehe, ain't I evil? MUAHAHAHAHA!
So came online started posting this VERY BERI long post :D
Its been so long ever since I posted this long, the feelings great!! But I lazy post this long ah, so nvm haha, once in a blue moon? :D
Kay then now SUPER DUPER UBER tired. Wanted to doze off while I was thinking of what to type for this post lol. Shall go to sleep soon, even though its a Sat, besides now's holidays, can stay up late everyday hehe!
Tml nothing to do again, gaah. Someone go all the way to Kovan to cut hair, very fun horss. Like that salon is the only one who can cut your hairstyle haha.
byebye~ :D

Read your e-mail, really happy lol.
Okay I sound himbo-ish. -.-"
Anyways, thanks hahas...
Try to cheer up? Don't keep letting your mama get in the way of things.
As you said, its your life, live it the way you want to live it.
Don't let someone control it for you, even though its your mama.
But don't so cruel lahh, keep asking her to die =X
And you don't die hor I tell you, I'll kill you again. And you better don't run away hahaha! :D
iloveyoutoo x3 (^.^)
And that e-mail you sent, you wrote it until like I am a truely 100% blonde sehs, I'm not! >.<
I know I sotong, but sotong no hair, so cannot be blonde! So I no blonde no blonde kay? :D

Its cold...

2008-10-24T08:33:00.009+08:00

gaah, woke up so early today -.-
Then now have nothing to do, and no one's at home, I'm bored D:
Everyone else is sleeping! tskk, all like little pigs like that, sleep until so shuang in cold weather, then don't want come online de.
Then now I'm like super cold and bored cans. gaah.
Nothing to do~~
Have band later... but thats still 4 hours away omg! ><

/edit
Okay 2 hours have passed... And I'm still freezing tskk.
And I think i wana go band 2 hours earlier, cause there's seriously nothing to do omg.
I'm dying of boredom at home lahh...
gaahh... How come I'm always complainning I'm bored now zz...
Shall go find something to do...

/edit again
LOL, edited again -.-
Going off now... Since no one wants to talk to me anyways...
And its still so cold damn...

Understand the situation first...
See what is wrong...
Find the solution by putting EVERY possibility in your head...
Once found get help from your peers...
Or talk about the problem aloud so that it'll ease your heart...
That's the way to cheer up...
Stay happy...
Like you were before...

Breaks are boring! D:

2008-10-23T22:38:00.001+08:00

As title, BREAKS ARE BORING zomg.
I have totally nothing to do at home cans, I'm tired of rotting also -.-
And there's no one to talk to~ D:
Can some kind soul please talk to me? I'm so dying of boredom now, and I think I completed the whole 100 ep of the Hitman series within a week. Thats how bored I am right now -.-
Help? LOL...

What happen today ah...

2008-10-23T17:11:00.002+08:00

Well... morning had assembly. Went to help carry the drum set. And Mr Wong's playing! Omg its nice... Even though canon in D was an old/boring/simple song, they played it very well! No, I'm not a hypocrite -.-
Anyways, after that went running around. From Ws to Tm to Cs to Tm to Ws. Can anyone make out what I'm saying? hahas...
So very tired... Shall be collecting the report book later. And I'm tired lahhs, I want to sleep tskk.
Oh well... shall go rest 1st... Meeting my mama at 6.30 at the MRT station lol...
I hope she doesn't kill me when she sees the report book D:

I'll be waiting...

thinking about it..

2008-10-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

After thinking about what I said in my previous post, I know its a bit awkward for you... and I'm sorry. Really.
I know you won't be reading this since you're already offline...
And I not only want to say sorry for that... I also wanted to say sorry for everything that happened...
It was my fault for getting jealous... I shouldn't have been that way...I'm sorry.
I neglected your feelings, and didn't notice most of them... I'm sorry as well...
I was a selfish person... sorry...
I know that its hard to get back as cheerful and happy as before... but I'm still going to try...
I looked back at our posts, and notice many things have changed from time to time...
So I'm sorry, I hope you will forgive me... >.<

I'm tired...

2008-10-22T17:37:00.003+08:00

Today I finally realized how stupid I am that I took so long to figure out some stuff and why am I kidding myself.
My existence has been reduced to 0 already.
Today when we went to bowling, before we reached, you didn't even talk to me...
I was there spacing out... you didn't even ask what happened...
When we went to e!hub and went to superdog, I didn't buy anything to eat, but you didn't ask " you not eating ah?" like how you would in the past...
When we went to bowl, you didn't care why I was spacing out so much...
And it shocked me that the one whom I\ve always thought irritating, yin ze -.-
Is the only one that asked me why I was so emo. It really hit me...
Next when we went out and you all bought chocolates, no one ever did really asked me if I wanted to buy, neither did you...
When we went to the playground, you all played with the swing, while I sat alone in a corner and played with the sand. You didn't care either... All you did was to play with the others and laughed.
I wonder if you even notice that we first held hands there, under the tree.... which the leaves has all turned yellow... It was so nostalgic...
Then when you all left, you didn't say a word... I was invisible, no one actually cares whether I went a not. I was like a wandering ghost following you all around the place, no one actually cares. And I don't make a sound. I didn't even talk more then 10 sentences today, but did anyone notice? I doubt so...
So I really wonder, do I really need to exist in this world a not? You got your friends, with or without me its the same, and my family, if I'm not smart, they wouldn't even care whether I exist a not. My friends... how many of you actually noticed there was something wrong with me these few days? I know super pig and some other people did notice, but what about the others? I know no reason for me to exist anymore...
I really ask myself, what did I do wrong...?
Why did it turned out like this...?
What happened to the yunxuan that I love?
And...
what happened to the yunxuan that loved me?
The tone when you said "bye" towards me in the lift, it sounded different.
It had no "love" in it...
And the jacket that you were holding on to... I so rather wish I would be it rather then me.
When you're is cold, they take a jacket out to wear, but if I'm mingxuan, no one uses me when they are cold, whats the use of having me?
When you need something to hug, the jacket is so small, and it smelled so nice cause of the perfume. But no one hugs mingxuan and mingxuan isn't nice smelling like a perfume. what need is there for mingxuan to be around?
A jacket is so portable cause its small, and its lovable by everyone... But mingxuan is so big, and is ignored by everyone, whats the use of having mingxuan?
Being a jacket I would be a much more use to you and more loved by you.
I don't know what to think anymore, and I'm tired from guessing...
My heart aches for your love which I'm deprived of...
I kept bluffing myself thinking that you still loved me a bit in your heart because you smsed me when you went to the bird park, because you still had convo's with me in msn.
But now, you don't even talk to me in msn...
I really don't know what to do...
Please tell me...
I really want to go bang a wall and die, but I can't do that.
So please tell me... I really am driven to the edge of the cliff already...

school's boring tskk...

2008-10-20T20:17:00.003+08:00

Today school's very boring lahhs....
Girlfriend went to jurong bird park...tskk...Then never go school. So school's boring D:
Then Morning sang the anthem and school song twice can, somemore in some freaking hot weather condition -.-
After that went to the hall for the taiwan learning journey presentation.
Brought back a lot of memories can lols.
Then before that right, jodie, pam, pearl, celes and shuting told us that the kidney disection thing is on thurs? Need cut fingernail! Gaahh... Don't feel like cutting leh, mine still quite short leh =x Elieen also didn't wana cut sia lol.
After the presentation went for recess.
Ate VERY VERY slowly...
Then went up to the hall again for the movie screening. It wasn't that bad lah, got boring parts.
After that went for band... Its so dirty that my socks turned black cans -.-"
And a lot of people didn't come back lahh. Cheat my feeling one. Only mutiara came back, but like don't know how late, 4+? idk lols.
After had the discussion for the set piece. Actually I wasn't supposed to be there de lorhs, I go extra only haha, so I didn't prepare anything...
Took notes using my phone lol.
Then ah, some people got touch screen phone leh! Tskk.. rich hors~ hahas...
Then had dinner at cavana. Mutiara is comical cans lol.
She didnt finish her wedges, so she wanted to bring them home. I told her to use the cavana that sausage seller the bag, then she really go use sia, but she scared at first lah, funny haha.
Then went home after that, I'm like broke now.
Idk how I'm going to survive for the whole week...
Tml have trip to sci center and have band. But i have $0 with me now! Tskk...
Wed going to watch girlfriend bowl lol, means eating out? idk need money again.
Then thurs have the kidney disection thing, need money cause later SURE have people jio me go eat one. hor super pig?
Then friday no school... dunno if band's cancelled or what. See how uhs, but by friday i also die liao lol.
Oh well... now shall go watch hitman reborn! Nahh... lazy ah.
Shall go and do nothing :D
okay byebye people...
Oh yah, thanks super pig for the " idiots guide on how to make pigs happy."
Much appreciated hahas :D

2008-10-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

Today's nice.

Thanks a lot, for everything :D

ily x3

After thinking...

2008-10-16T18:43:00.001+08:00

I thought long today...
And I finally got an answer.
Its just that I failed to realize how lucky I am to have you.
Well, now I know, and I'm making any stupid mistakes again heehs. :D

I've decided...

2008-10-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

I've decided, that I'm going to maintain a happy out look and keep all the "cannot be said things" deep inside of me. Try keep a happy outlook like how everyone used to know me. I will keep on laughing at anything and everything like how I used to be, and keep everything to myself, maybe it'll be better that way, maybe now I some-what understand how you feel. Yes I'm refering to you, the person who has the private blog :O (LOL)

No fair...

2008-10-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

Somethings' been on my mind now, and I don't really wana talk about it. I prefer keeping it a secret cause if I tell anyone, I don't think its going to help, and I think its going to become worse. However if I let nature take its course, its 100% going to become worse, but what to do? I'm "no-good mx". Stuuupid, why am I me?
I hate myself more then anything else, gaaaah.
Life's stupid you know that.
One thing after another, I'm so going to break down one day suddenly when I can't take it, and I'm so close to the edge of the cliff already.

Why can't I be like before?

2008-10-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

I just started thinking, that the world around me had changed so much.
10 years ago, I was this naive little child which was very "guai". I thought everything was good. Except for those "bad people" in the movies and tv shows. Or maybe cartoons.
I listened to my mum and did all the assessments she handed me, went for tuition and NEVER NEVER quarreled with her. I was more of a quiet person, anti-social. I didn't have many friends, mostly one or two. Well, I'm sort of a mummy's boy I guess?
So well, time passed, and 5 years ago, I was still "pure" and "innocent" and "naive". I know none and seriously NONE of you all will say that (like duuh -.-) but then, yaah, I didn't even know what was fuck back then. Well, what ya expect from a nerd? I was still having the mushroom hair style with big rounded specs. I have more friends then usual, but I kept getting bullied often, and well, I didn't get into any fights. So yaah, thats about it. I was still shy...
Now, after growing up, for 10 years, i realized there's more to life then it seems. Things never go as planned. There's more to it then meets the eye. All the stupid idioms are starting to make sense. And I'm starting to hate myself more and more. Why? Cause I'm getting smarter, and I'm beginning to understand how harsh and cruel this world is. Its not like the "goody-goody place with no bad guys" like how I used to think it was years ago. As time passes everything changed, even I changed. Even though not all was bad... So I started swearing and started hating myself everytime things don't go according to plan (which is EVERYTIME ._.)but I made lots of new friends, and became more social then I was before. Well, I found thats the only GOOD thing that I improved in, all the others suck, excluding studies and skills lah.
How I hope now I can just go back into the past and be a naive little kid thinking evetything in this world is good, maybe it'll just help me to lift the burden of thinking so much about my troubles and problems and make me less "zi bei".
gaah, now I know why the old wants to be the young again.
I suddenly feel like I'm "no-good tsuna" all of a sudden. Except there's no reborn, or stupid bullets that make me awaken my sleeping potential or some sort of bullshit that you only see in anime. Its just how the story of tsuna would have continued his life without meeting reborn. Lonely, pathetic, and basically "no-good" in anything and everything. He's character is like mine, anti-social, unable to make friends, timid, coward, scared, and always being forced to be a leader, but never been able to do anything. Everyone can see from the show tsuna is a good for nothing, but he was choosen to be the boss. And I also know that I am not as fierce as ____ or brave as ____ or maybe not as smart as ____ but I still get chosen to be a leader. I find our lives really similar.
But so what? He has reborn, and he's from some anime.
I'm living in the real world, with no such things as those "babies". I seriously need a wake up call. I want to change my personality. I kept blaming myself, for being scared and what knots, but I never tried to change, and if I tried to change, and fail, I'll give myself a pathetic excuse saying that " Aiyo, you're born like this, want change also cannot change lah" And try to comfort my sorry little self. I hate this, all of this. Why can't I be like other people? Why must I be me. Why? Can't I have only the sweet moments and forget the bitter? And why does bitter moments last longer in my memories then sweet ones? Why?
Ah, forget it, probably anyone who even reads this won't know anything about what I'm talking about, so yah, nvm... Just wanted to rant something haha.

Anyways today's the 14th again!
(Suddenly change mood LOL)

Happy anniversary! 5th month le wors. :D I know a lot of things happen recently, and well, I still can't read your mind so I won't start guessing... YET. Hope everything turns out fine yaah?

我爱你<3~
;D

Tml no school, going to die from rotting already...

2008-10-12T21:48:00.002+08:00

Hmm... tml is marking day, then no school. Tsskk, going to be super bored at home. Esp. since all my other friends go out ah, or got school. Sian lehs... Some go dota, watch movie, i stay at home rot. Ayes, nvms, shall get used to it anyways. I suddenly feel like going to bowl tml, but nobody pei me, and I doubt that there is any space there anyways. And I wouldn't be so crazy to go bowling by myself even though I'm a bit siao. idk why I'm making this post, then like wed got outing to escape, dunno whether if I going a not, cause if not many people go, then the outing a bit useless hors, cause its supposed to be a CLASS outing whats... I feel like banging my head towards the wall, maybe I can get some ideas on what to do tml...

Eoys over le...

2008-10-10T21:00:00.003+08:00

Well, today all my exams ended liao yayy~ I don't sound happy do I? lols, oh well... Today saw peiyin at white sands o.o I bet roger and willi sure excited already zzz... Anyways she still like never change liddat, always the same attitude one. Oh well, I didn't see her since THAT time haha. And went on audi in the afternoon, saw nick online lols. Rare sehs, and gaahs, my comp can't support audi season 2 -.- And cause needa buy new furniture, new tv, then all my hopes of getting a laptop will be gone *woosh* Ayes, nvm bahs. Wait till next year, next next year? idk. Now freaking bored, thats why I'm posting gaahs, don't know what to do... I find myself pathetic cans, I'm ranting towards a life-less thing, the computer. Tmd, like I really anti-social zzz... Maybe I am, wait, I've always been anti-social. Since primary school, I was never social. Gaah, what am I saying. And I think it was ytd, celestine and gillian saw me at the interchange, with yx. They gimme the "O_O -uncontrolable laughter-" face -.- okay nvms, Monday is going to be boring. I don't wana go lan, I wana go out, but no one ask me out, tskk. Forget it, shall make rotting my good friend already, I go rot now, understand more of my friend. I'm crapping too much -.-

Some things just need getting used to...

2008-09-26T18:02:00.003+08:00

Hmm...today was okay bahs. Well, in the morning was raining like super mad -.-" I was drenched in the back even though I had an umbrella. And it was freaking cold lah kays, then I went to buy socks, threw away my old one hahas, waste money siolzx :P Then like, the whole day was barefooted except when I went to recess and after school. Barefooted nice, can feel the wind blowing through your feet haha. Okay nvm, then after school followed yunxuan, yonling and dixuan go dixuan hse take her stuff for h.e Then they walk here walk there dunno do what sehs lol, okay I know lah, uhmm.... see whether they can put their stuffs into the h.e room! See I so smart :D (I'm talking to myself again -.-) Then after that they had their h.e lorhs... wait wait wait... Lucky weiren was there lah. Played a bit of basketball and went for Mr Cheang remedial. He didn't know me! LOL, and he passed me the band room keys before. Hm... Guess teachers really have some sort of STM bahs, esp. hthh. LOL. Kay, nvm. Oh yah, weiren told Mr Cheang about my relationship with Mr Cheang also, but he like no reaction leh. O.o Maybe he like, used to seeing his students in relationship? I don't know... (I'm taking to myself AGAIN WTH) I'm talking to myself cause nobody talk to me bahs tskk. Then after that kept playing and whatever, then when they came out walked with yunxuan they all to the bus interchange then went home le, cause maybe her mum come back bahs. Scary sehs hehe. Hmm...well, I need to get use to 3 hours of waiting haha, in case some people are wondering what my title of the post is about. Why 3 hours? Cause today I waited 3 hours for yunxuan, then in the end never go home with her. Then that time, tution, waited 3 hours too! But also never go back with her lol. So need to get used to it -.-" Kay, shall find something to occupy me now since somebody *coughscoughs* not online. And I'm super hungry now. Cause yunxuan say they all gona cook then let us eat, so I didn't eat anything. Then in the end never eat anything, so freaking hungry =x But they also cook until quite disgusting lol, maybe its a good thing I didn't eat bahs... But still, I AM HUNGRY. =X LOL.

Random post. heehs.

2008-09-25T22:35:00.003+08:00

Sudden urge to do this, even though no one asked me to.
Hmm... oh well, I'm weird what hahas.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. ~~Sexy~~. ~~Temperamental~~. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. ~~Rebellious when restricted.~~ ~~Loves aggressiveness.~~ Too sensitive and easily hurt. ~~Gets angry really easily but does not show it.~~ Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. ~~Daring and stubborn.~~ ~~Ambitious.~~ ~~Realizes dreams and hopes.~~ ~~Sharp.~~ Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. ~~Superstitious and ludicrous.~~ ~~Spendthrift.~~ Tries to learn to show emotions.

For the fun of it, hahas.

And here are somethings which I strongly agree to:

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

I agree like totally haha.
Told ya all it was a random post :P

Kay let's see what we have today...

2008-09-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

Today was the start of our EOY! *GASP* Chinese was easy, I had the dictionary. 1st time I'm using it lorhs, and I didn't even use it during PSLE can -.- Anyways, english I got my format TOTALLY wrong. My condition is getting worse. It seems that my skin is tearing apart and will start bleeding whenever I start scratching it. There are bleed marks all over my body, which I think some is caused by mos, and some caused by myself. I don't know what to do already, medicine ain't helping at all. Gaah, forget it. The next thing you know they'll be inventing artificial skin for people like me. So after the papers went to find yunxuan and jekee. They like both prepared until very well huhs, both brought jacket, then I sotong lah can, never bring jacket or what, go there shivering already -.-" Then its like I don't think yunxuan understands what I'm saying lah can. I'm just doing the questions and briefly explain to her. Tsktsktsk, so bad rights me, fail as teacher also =X Yaah, then after that went off, and met nic, mutiara, and huixiu. Went to *ahemahem* ATAS place. =) LOL. Anyways was shivering like SIAO when I went there, serious. Can ask mutiara. I ask her lend me her cardigan for a while also don't want zzz... Serious ah, really cold. But nvm, uhm... started eating yayaya, and nic spat water at huixiu and mutiara, thats the ending finale can lol. Super funny. Then after that went home. Jody said she saw me at whitesands. But I didnt see her o.o Pa jiao already ah me. lols...

Ksy I know you're bothered over what's been going on. And I have no idea what you think. So I hope you'll be happy in which ever decision you make. And I'll support your decision kays? (sound drama, tsk I watch too much drama already lah) And today was nice kay. =)

....

2008-09-21T13:33:00.005+08:00

-Deleted the post-
I shall try to make my blog a POSITIVE blog, so I shall stop putting up all my negetive feelings now. But if anyone saw the previous post, good for you. haha. But I guess none bahs, oh well. And I really meant what I said in the previous post, I shall keep it as a secret bahs, a bad secret. Eh! Wait, I'm telling everyone I have a secret, wth -.- Kay, nvm.
Oh and everyone please tag, my box like put there for display only -.-

Am I unlucky or what?

2008-09-21T11:50:00.002+08:00

Today woke up like 7.30, yaah, its usual for me lah, then wanted to TRY to get to sleep, but no use -.- So ended up using the comp, till 10? I forgotten. And I found out my specs, the rubber came off. So its like super pain now and I'm still using it. It left a red mark on my nose already -.- I went to the market at 10, let my brother used the comp, so thats why my status was "away". Don't know if you'll read this but well, for the sake of explanation bahs heehs. Then went to the market with my mama, trying to fix my specs, and do some shopping. When we went there, it was CLOSED! Meaning I have to make another trip there later on, just to fix my specs. Gaah. Super sians can! And damn unlucky, oh all times now closed. Then helped my mama with shopping then came home. Oh well, don't care much already bahs. Later I don't know going to do what ah. Ayes...

Damn bored now... =X

2008-09-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

Super bored now, cause yunxuan's not online! Sadded! Well, my cos came, so maybe I will try to disturb them for entertainment bahs, or maybe someone can entertain me? I'm really very bored, sian, whatever, you name it lah -.-" Okay, off i go.

New skin, looks nice!

2008-09-20T11:40:00.002+08:00

Okay I found this skin, its pretty nice haha. And the words ain't hard to read like the previous blogskin.

Boo, I'm here to post!

2008-09-19T21:40:00.002+08:00

Okay... idk where to start. Hmmm... Let's see.
Certain things have been going on, and yeah, I'm lazy to elaborate them. Hmm...well my progress report was back, uh...didn't fail any so quite okay bahs.
But my english got a C6!! Like omg T__T
Borderline for ENGLISH leh. can die liao lahhhh! !Ah, forget it, I was never an english person anyways. Well, today was okay bahs, woke up, went to sch, did everything usual. Assembly was changed into homeroom. Like freaking stuuupid. Wenbin was wearing his npcc the kit ah. Then he was asked to sweep the floor lol.
Then he was like " wa lao eh, jing cha qu sao di! ta ma de. Na li you jing cha qu sao di de!" In case you don't know what it means, he's trying to say "where got police sweep floor one!" Damn funny lah cans haha. Then got bored went to sleep... When i woke up, i saw everyone almost left liao lah, stuuupid wenbin never call me wake up zzz... If not for kow and esther yap falling down right, the loud noise i think i sleep until when i also dun know ah. (Ps not saying you all fall is a good thing lah lol)then after school went to find yunxuan, she was having the h.e briefing, wah dunno brief about what sehs, brief so long. Must be teaching them how not to burn the h.e room or something heehs. Kay, that done we walked all the way to interchange, just to send nisa to take the bus! lol, aint we pro huhs. Then walked back through the fish pond, then i took the bus home. yunxuan doesnt like bleaches heehs. okay, then reached home, bathed, headed out again. Went on the bus and say benny, dam qiao haha. talked a bit then he went off while i waited for the others. Pam was first to arrive, then jodie then huixiu. 2.30 then become 3.00 lol. they were late very late. heehs, then went to mac, then went to school. got cucumber to help us pass up the hw cause we were wearing home clothes, cant go in haha. and theres a new security guard, can tell he's very pissed off with cucumber haha. okay, nvm then walked to downtown went to subway, met jodie's friend then yah, ate subway for the 1st time. like super weird, super self service haha. but can lah, the food not bad, i must remember to add other stuff the next time hehe. Uhm... then was like super full after i ate, then went on to do maths. Understood algebric fraction le wee~ But prolly will forget again soon -.-" Then after that went home around 6.45/7?
Then took bus home. then at home i super zai, idk what i do but i stayed on msn for like 3 hours -.- then yah still on msn now. okay someone complain i post very long liao haha, so tata~

Back to the oldies.

2008-09-16T18:23:00.002+08:00

Haha, yeah changed my flashbox back to my cbox.

If you noticed, the last message was like in June.

Which was dunno how many months ago lols.

Oh well, my bro wana use comp now, shall try to keep my blog alive now.

By posting useless stuffs like what I just did haha.

And do click the imeem song, its quite nice =)

Fact 1

2008-09-16T17:16:00.002+08:00

In reality, we write more than we say because it stays longer.

We do more than we say because it means much more...

Just writing a fun fact, like what I always say " Ren shen da dao li" haha.

Right wenbin? LOL.

Hmmm...

2008-09-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

Well, I suddenly feel like changing blogskins again, maybe shall do it tml, doing piled up homework now -.-"
Today morning took a 40min bus ride to school, pro ayes? lol, and I wasn't late! hahas.
After that had lessons, then yah yah, then last lesson was chem, got quiz, then released late lols. Sorry to those who were waiting for me ah. =X
Then uhmm... followed yunxuan they all, go b&j after that go downtown eat.
Hmm...walk here walk there, dunno how they end up walking to downtown and e!hub twice or even thrice if i remember correctly lol. Oh well...
Then after that bus-ed to yunxuan house, walk walk walk then passed her the thing outside the lift lol. Reply and send, like very fun like that ah heehs.
Yaah, went home after that bahhs.

I know you tried treating me visibly today =)
And I was very happy, even though I don't think you can see it with my expressionless face can you?
Well, I just hope you won't be unhappy treating me visibly, I know and I guess you know too that treating me visibly means lesser time for your friends...
I hope you won't treat me visibly for the sake of it, and treat me visibly because you want to, cause well... you seem unhappy, and you didn't talk to your friends a lot... Aiya, why think so much rights!
Just live life happily can liao!
Esp. with you, why think so much huhs?
Think think think, stuuupid brain.
And well, I hope you will be happy once everything is over.
And I have totally no idea what "everything" is.
And I'm not gona ask, I'm going to wait till you tell me.
I know its difficult for you, thus I'm not going to ask anymore.
And its not your fault either, please don't blame yourself.
And...
I'll always be there when you need me...
;D

Rotting season.

2008-09-14T22:14:00.003+08:00

Heehs, okay today woke up around 7+
After that went out around 12 bahs, reached tamp at 12.45
Was scared yunxuan they all released early, so went there a WEE bit earlier only hahas, then saw Grace. LMAO, comical can. She told me she waiting for Amanda, then rights, I saw "D" at the other side of the station.
So pretend:

G / D

They are being blocked lol, cant see each other haha. Damn comical, then after they met, they ran off, like very scared of me like that lol. Hmm...Anyways paced around the mrt station in circles, haha, then yunxuan finally came, wearing her hoodie, new shoes and her zr. Lol, she look prettyyy~
Kay, nvms, hmm... took the mrt back to pasir ris, then bus-ed to her tution there lol, which is at tamp lah. Okay, so her mum bought her a crystal star, which has many many many colours. Orange, Blue, Purple. LOL. Anyways, after she reached rights, told her I gonna wait for her till tution finish, so yeah waited. so from 2-5.30 I had nothing to do.
2-3 Ate ice-cream at mac, after that fell asleep.
Around 3.30 woke up then went to walk 1 whole round around the place, hmm... then sat at the centre of the place, until about 4.15
After that went to sit at the bus stop, started talking to myself like some retard, then saw zhafri lol. Eh, didn't know he lived near there heehs. Started talking to myself again, talk talk talk until 5.15
Then started to rain, then yunxuan still havent come out, I abit worried, run here run there like some mad person. Serious, I went to the staircase, then went back to the bus stop, then went to mac, then went back to the staircase, repeat process -.-"
I scared she went off already thats why so late lols, but in the end her father came to fetch her, then its like I give her the O_O *your father came?* face.
Well, after that they went to eat at mac, then she passed me some stuffs heehs. Then yeah went home alone, ayes..
Well, not really wasted bahs, waited 3hrs and 30mins to get some "stuffs" which I like LOL.
Then went home ate, dammit, dinner wasnt nice =X
Oh well, now I'm here posting haha, once in a blue moon =P
Byes, going offline ler, yunxuan went off already, no one to talk to haha.
Besides I promised my mum I'll off the comp at 10.30, now its 10.25 lol.

Hmm...Well, I wonder how you're going to tell me your answers.
And I hope I can do what I wrote...

HAPPY ANNI~! x3
So fast... its been 4 months already.
From May, to Sep.
In May, we were still shyshy, haha. Don't dare talk to each other when friends were around huhs.
In June our relationship got a bit better =)
In july, we were more comfortable towards each other.
In August, we faced a lot of problems, esp. from your mama, but we still pulled through.
In Sep, now not so shy liao, problems still aplenty but nothing's too hard for us right? =)

Happy anniversary, Iloveyou~

BASKET!!

2008-09-10T18:36:00.002+08:00

Arsehole! Stuuupid bro. He off-ed the comp AGAIN while I was using it. Fuck man. The internet connection was freaking gone and I had to wait for don't know how many donkey minutes and the stuuupid msn doesn't want to sign me in as well. Fuck. Totally pissed off right now. Ughh~!!
Today woke up having aches all over, damn pain -.-
Anyways after that went to school, normal stuff happened then I slept through lots of stuff as usual, then at kenny's grandma lesson I di siao-ed some upper sec, they threaten beat me up lol. Kay, there's a first for everything.
Mmm...well thats all bahs.

I really don't want you to ...
I know I'm being selfish, but really I don't want you to ...
And am I really that invisible?
Am I really that useless?

lol, today play billard haha.

2008-09-05T21:34:00.002+08:00

Well, morning woke up around 7, after that rotted at home while waiting for yunxuan to come online, but neh, didnt so, went off around 1030. After that went to watch kids central! Woot, nice shows, shaolin showdown, yingyangyo, etc.etc. LOL. I'm such a kid haha. Then went out at 1215, cause need meet mingrui at thunderbird, I wasnt late lol, I reached like 1229 HAHA. We were supposed to meet at 1230. Then jody lagi best, come at 1245 lol. So we bought the prezzie and waited for her outside whitesands, then gave the money and went off liao, its been quite long since I seen her I think hahas. Okay after that was around 1245, waited for everyone, gillian, huixiu. Then gillian came telling me jasper cmi -.- LOL, sad case ah sgt honey, then after that nicholas came. Huixiu was late, then mutiara was also coming haha. So waited around 1315, then mutiara came, then her hair look like those just wake up one. Heehs, anyways, after that nicholas and mutiara went off, dunno run where, then left me and gillian waiting for huixiu. Her printer dun like her haha. Then she reached around 1330, lol, I was freaking hungry, I havent eat lunch yet mahs, then went to the kopitiam eat. Ate korean and huixiu bought her laptop, gillian was doing the olympics on mlg. Ate finish after that went to airport, but on the way huixiu went to take money from her dad cause she forgotten to bring her wallet haha. Kays, after that we reached the airport, T3 and went to tosto. Then when I called mutiara they all, they told me they playing with the travellator LOL. Damn retarded cans haha, but nvms lah, its THEM what lol, kinda expected hehe. So yeah, after that they came and did a weeny bit of maths, like 2 questions then sian liao, its like totally never do at all cans -.- Then went to order stuff to eat, I ate some bread with ham and cheese, SUPER DUPER UBER NICE cans. I think I gave gillian and huixiu a bite, ( I stingy ah lol) they also say very nice hehe, so my 6.80 not wasted haha. Really its very nice, yunxuan, you should have gone with us can, i would have given you 1 of the 2 pieces, LOL. Then after eating, crapped a lot, then decided to play billard at elias green. Haha, a bit sotzx, but yeah, we went. Gillian was living there, and so was huixiu's friend, alex. But alex was working so had to call her brother, brendan lol, he plays the alto, from what huixiu says lah. Kays, after that went to the club house there and played billard, lol, he thought us how to play, ( me and nicholas) He was a good teacher can haha, but I know he wun read this, I mean he doesnt even know my name, how does he know my blog? haha, okay, after that got the hang of it lahs, but noobie still, I mean I dun think I can learn billard in like, a few hours? lol. Well, it was fun lah, haha, all the style shoot then in the end fail, then those balls where can go in de never go in -.-" But at least I got to exprience a bit of billard bahs haha. Then after that walked home from there, but before that bought ice-cream lol. I abit sotzx lah, but who cares man lol.

I feel like killing this blog =X

2008-09-03T17:54:00.002+08:00

Okay, as title, I really feel like killing my blog right now. Lets see, the box has been dead for how many donkey days, erm...
I rarely post, even if I do post, no one reads it anyways.
So yeah, I wonder if I'll post again, but I was happy today =)
Today, woke up in the morning, on-ed the comp as usual, then my bro fren's came over to play ping pong. Well, could tell they were beginners haha. But I myself also not very pro lahs @_@
Anyways, after that went to yunxuan's house. Decided to take another bus, cause it would reach faster = spending more time with her =)
So yeah, I took the bus, was 10 mins earlier compared to my previous visit.
Hmm...When I reached we did physics, and no more. Talked about weird stuffs, haha.
Then we went to look at the chong chong. LOL.
I couldn't see it at first, then its like she grabbed my hand point point point then I see lol, sorry lah, people blind mah tsk.
Hmm..after that went to white sands cause her mum wanted to meet her? She had to buy local stamps, haha, and its like she pulled me into the queue with her, she felt very weird haha. Cause we were like the only ones who want to buy stamps there? And its super duper empty -.-" Oh well, after that since it was only like 4.55? Went to the library, she interested in some weird chinese book haha. Sorry lah, never let you read finish =x
Then went outside the library and waited for her mama. Them saw ming rui. LOL. Chatted with him for a SUPER SHORT while. Then yeah, went home, I waved to yunxuan like 3 times before I left, kinda retarded haha.
1st time-- When I said bye.
2nd time-- Before I entered the lift.
3rd time-- Before I left white sands.
LOL~ Kinda stuuupid huhs? But she waved back! -happyhappy- LOL.

You make me really feel like your boyfriend hahas. I mean the grabbing of my hand and showing me the chong chong means you ain't really shy towards me like you used to be...
At the post office you grabbed my bag and dragged me into the line with you, which made me feel like, you know, of some importance =X
I know I'm retarded, you know I'm retarded haha.
But yeah, today's 3rd september.
Happy anniversary~! =)
For something else...i wonder if you knew... hehe...

Mmm...

2008-08-30T23:58:00.002+08:00

Today was quite nice bahs.
Okay had band in the morning, then ran around getting the tutors to sign the form. Was my 1st time and I screwed up, ayes...
Failure sia me =X
Anyways, after that I was practicing baritone, cause Izzat never come. Cause Mr Wong said if no bari, he wants to see bari, so what to do? Hahas, but bari not bad uhs.
Cause I can play some parts of deep purple already, and procession a bit cause I played for westwood, merry widow a bit messed up I think hahas. Anyways band was quite nice bahs, except I'm super duper uber FLAT. -.- I seriously have no idea why.
Okay then after band went to eat at BK, Mutiara suddenly cried ( Yay I'm telling the whole world Mutiara cried, nice one ehs) Okay, cause of some matter that she scared her mum would scold her? I think, mm...
Then she was like back to normal within minutes -.-"
Oh wells, then went to bueno vista -.-
Moe there LOL. Retarded rights, but nvms. Went to ACJC.
Super fun, enjoyed myself totally hahas. I seriously wish there will be another workshop like this heh. Took photos with the speaker, mm... Lazy post ah. =)
Okay after that went back to pasir ris, but before that huixiu ask me scratch her hand cause itchy ah -.- Then I scratch, I already warned her liao, but you know lah, she this type of people, *shakes head* LOL.
kay lah kay lah, dun *coughscoughs liao.
Lets see trained back to pasir ris, freaking crowded ride, till the passengers changed train hahas. Then played Dj max 1 on Gillian's psp. LOL. I like erm.. left Renee in awe yayness~ At least I'm better than her in something @__@
But before that I was like emo-ing, looking at the window, keep thinking of you. Tskk, so evil cans, everytime make me think of you one >.< Miss you like siao =X
Nvms, went to eat at Mac.
OMG LAHS, I had lunch and dinner, both also fast food, and you know what? My ulcer is hurting like mad and seriously, my mouth feels so pain when-ever I move my tongue -.-
Oh well, nvms, no one cares anyways hahas, then after that went home in Gillian's mum's car. LOL. Her car got style sehs haha. Eh thanks ah. =)
So to round everything off...

Sorry huixiu, for scratching your hand until THAT condition >.<

Thanks Gillian for asking your mum send me home, help me say thanks to your mum too, but I dun think you'll visit my blog anyways hahas

Yeah, and finally thank you so much for coming online while your mum's sleeping, felt so happy even though it lasted for like less than 15mins? hahas, I appreciate it a lot...

Iloveyou =)

Uhmm...

2008-08-29T17:35:00.002+08:00

爱一个人不是因为一时的冲动，也不是一时的决定。
爱就是缘分的结果。

因为缘分的开始，
就是让两个不同世界的人，
在同一个地方，聚在一起，
在同一个时间，喜欢上对方，
在同一个生命中，爱上彼此。

Seems so true...
And holidays are going to start...
She can't come out at all, I guess...
So I can't see her for very long...
And I will miss her like crazy...
1 week is a long time, seems like forever...
I just wish time will hurry up...
How I wished I could turn back the clock and relive the moments again...
And cherish everytime that I was with her, and made the best of it...
Ayes...

I'll miss you...

Does her mum has a spy or what?

2008-08-25T20:42:00.003+08:00

I know this title is stuuupid. But its too weird for me NOT to think this way. 3 August, the day when I first held her hand, the feeling was beyond what you have ever experienced. Its like you ate something so sweet that your jaws keep remain in a smiling position and you would keep replaying the flashbacks of what happened over and over again, and keep smiling to yourself. That's happiness, at least for me... That day, at night, its the 1st time her mum called me, was shocked, scared. Fear got me. It took me 1-2 days to realize that it was foolish of me to think that way. But whatever the cause, it happened on the day we 1st held hands. Next, yesterday. I went on a mad running spree. Saturday waited for her after cg. She said she wanted to go walkwalk in whitesands, but nobody pei her. So I went, however, she needs to bring her zr back so yeah nvms. Pei-ed her back then went off, the next day, Sunday. I went to wait for her at TM, since she had cg practice somewhere near there. I waited for her, 1hr 30mins. Then took the mrt back to pasir ris, then took the bus to tamp, where her tution was. Walked her all the way to tution. Needed her to push me away to get me going off... But I was happy cause I saw her smile... It meant that I did something that made her happy... So I was happy too... Later that evening had dinner with her, however her mum called me right after that, I rejected her calls, she took her phone, her's phone, her papa's phone, her bro's phone, her house phone and called me. I rejected it all. I some-what knew that she would be crying... And I'm not going to be so foolish go think 1-2 days, when I saw her, I instantly got the answer. So, her mum calls me whenever I'm happy with her. I am very totally ____ up. This post is just to say some weird stuff which in the end means repeating my past post ughs.

I love you, I'll always standby you no matter what happens kays? Please don't cry. It hurts me a lot, its something that I'll never tell you, and its something that you will never know, cause I don't think you'll be reading this..
Anyways, I just hope you'll really tell me your problems even though I know I am a stuuupid counseller. I never say comforting stuffs or provide shitty ideas, I just hope, I won't be left out...
And share your burden, not just watch you carry it alone...

And I finally know the feeling, how painful it is...
To wait for an sms or a msn message that will never come...

HEELLLOOOOO~~ long time never post le =)

2008-08-24T18:21:00.003+08:00

Yoyo, long time never post le. Not say busy, should be lazy to post bahs haha. Shall make this a short one, lazy to remember what happened a few days back (10) lol. Erm...lets see, saturday, woke up early in the morning, round 7++? Its freaking early cause its a Saturday morning haha. Then yunxuan wanted to go white sand walkwalk then no one pei her, so I went uhs, cause someone too busy cooking dunno what ah, dun even know edible a not heehs. Then she told me need to bring her zr home, so cannot go walkwalk, will bang into a lot of people, besides carrying the thing for long period of time also will get tired one mahs haha. So she told me dun wana go le, then just took the bus back with her to her house, talked a lot of weird weird stuff on the way, then eventually reached. Said bye and then went home. Next day, Sunday, Today. LOL. Erm... lets see, morning needed to wake someone up, then gave her morning call. 3 times then woke up le, fast sehs, some more silent mode hahas, light sleeper? =P Voice very cute uhs heh. Then she was late for like 30mins?++ Then the boos also more late haha nice one. So yeah, I went to tamp wait for her around 12. I rotted there for 1hr++ until her combine ended. Cause she told me 12 finish mahs, so I went there at 12 lorhs, oh well nvms heh. After that took MRT back to pasir ris, then took 12 to her tution place. Talked a lot on the bus as well. Then walked her to her tution place, heehs. Then on the way down met weijie haha. Oh well, then went back home. After that round 5 I left the house, went to fetch her from tution again, but got traffic jam, when I reached her block downstairs she already reached home, so I went back. Wasted trip, but nvms. =) Then later going to go out and eat with her lols. Run out again weee~ This is not fun, but I like the feeling =) Hope this answers your question. But still, it is fun when you're around hahas.

Reason...

2008-08-14T22:13:00.004+08:00

Just wanted to let you know...

I know I didn't give you any presents or cards or flowers and it may appear I'm not making a big deal out of our anniversary, but I really do care about it, but its hard to tell I know. I didn't give you presents, cards or flowers because of your mum. What if she found it? I don't want to go through that period anymore. I don't want to see you crying rivers. My heart aches, I know I don't show it. I wanted to meet you outside, like catch a movie, but both of us know that your mum wouldn't allow, and she would definitely know something is going on. I really like just want to hug you and wish you a happy anniversary, but I couldn't do this because I'm scared of your mum? Because I'm too shy? No, I think is because I'm scared that you will think I'm lame or stupid if I gave you stuffs. I really just want to hug you, you know. Really. I know this post may mean nothing, but I just wanted to make it a point to let you know, I really love you. Happy anniversary and I'm sorry if I have not been your ideal boyfriend like what your friends have. I'm very sorry. But my love for you is still the same.
I love you.

Wanted to write this in another language, but the translation no good ahs -.-"
So instead of you not being able to make sense of what the hell I was writing, I thought i just write it in English haha. I know this is just words, no action, maybe you don't even care what I write, you just want something other than words. How much I'll like to give you that... But what..? And how...?

Happy anniversary =)

2008-08-14T18:55:00.004+08:00

Happy 3rd month anniversary! je t'aime =)
I know I didn't give you anything, I may seem like a heartless/don't care or anything bad you can name it, boyfriend lahs, but...
Never mind, excuses won't help anyways, I'll tell you my reasons later.
Happy 3rd Month Anniversary~
私は愛する

Heehs, quite long never post liao.

2008-08-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

As requested by some people, I will TRY TRY TRY my very best to make this a wordy post. I don't really actually they read my posts though lols. Anyways, not really in the mood to post such long ones, kinda tired hurhur, so I'll see what I can do lol.
Lets start with NDP, erm morning, woke up at 4.30!! Freaking early omg I know heh. Then since there was NO bus that early, I had to walk to school -.-" Yeah I know, you must be thinking I sot liao right, cause like who the hell would wake up at 4.30 with an empty stomach and walk for like don't know how far to how far -.-" Okay and my father took his company bus about the same time I started walking, and guessed what? I reached white sands faster then him omg -.- Then after I reached, saw george with his friend, dunno the name ps haha. Then erm, jekee and huixiu late as usual -.-" Mac wasnt open, so had to settle for instant noodles, then when I saw jekee bought his sandwhich I rather ate that lorhs, cause the instant noodles suck can -.- Taste so bland =x Okay then like we were late, yayaya, scold scold scold, lazy type out lahs, lol. Then hentak dunno how long lah, then okay carry instruments, whatever, then I took a new reed, different size. Gawd. I was squeeking like a mouse can >.< Renee told me not to grip so hard, but I was even touching the mouthpiece alreadY!! -.-" Ahh, dunno lahs, and it feels so weird, not touching my instrument for a few days, I mean i think im starting to miss it even though i didnt play it for 2 dayS? I feel very "bu zi zai" lol. Oh wells, then the national day okay bahs, almost like last year? Then its like the fancy drill, the NPCC did very nice and well organized lol. So yeah they deserve to win, then the mascot, all look so funny, haha, I like the torch =) Okay, then yunxuan was like sitting behind us lol, then the ug like keep blocking my view, so bad rights zzz... Oh well, then at the end of the performance rush in like last year, and amazingly i actually danced can. LOL. At least a bit lah, but lets just say I'm different from last year, I changed a lot =) I dunno whether its good or bad though hurhur. Okkay then went back to band room, lots of stuff happen, wonder if the saxophone juniors can recognise my hand writing, hmmm guess not, oh wells, then yeah ended the day, then just went to eat blahblahblah, then at home liao, dunno do what forget le. Heehs, okay then at night yunxuan told me she wanted to watch fireworks, so obviously i wanted to pei her right, then jekee and huixiu also came along, yeah so everything happened on saturday, off to the next chapter~

Saturday, okkay morning woke up, dunno what happened, forgotten le, then went off to meet them, and as usual AGAIN, huixiu was late. -.- Okkay so yeah, boarded the train, hmm, was sleeping then i dunno who go pull my hair, like very fun like that -.- Okay yeah, then obviously i dun dare sleep already lol. So just stay awake, anyway its almost reaching ler. So when we reached, i dunno why lah, I was super quiet lol. Yunxuan was too, I wanted to ask her why, but its like i know she wun tell me anything so i didnt ask =x And yeah, walked up and down up and down the place, then after that settled down for satay, and drinks. -.- yunxuan never eat anything, tskk =X Then went to the memorial and waited for the fireworks to start, damn funny when we were there. 1st its like there was this tree blocking our view, then we cannot see properly already, then it started raining, yunxuan brought an umbrella, then its like obviously the 2 girls use, then after a while, there was an indian couple i think, who sat beside me. Then they kept coming closer so i like just shifted in hurhur,then my arm was practically touching her arm already, and cause she wasnt wet from the rain, felt so warm cans hah. Anyways. its just like after a super long time, some people from china, sat down then they hold the umbrella up, so now the 2 girls, cannot see anything, then huixiu and yunxuan was like "tsktsktsk" "move your umbrella away" whatever lah -.- Then the guy, from china noticed, but he did not dare to tell the aunties, lol. Think he scared, then its like the aunties look as us, fierce look, but like its their fault, fierce what fierce siolzx -.- We came here 1st what, but being such a nice person as i am, i didnt voice my opinion out. =) Not like some people *coughscoughs* tskk. Oh wells, then it took huixiu or jekee, forgotten liao a super long time that we were sitting very close lorhs -.- Then she act in the same way as cheryl lol. Okay lah, then was the fireworks, lahlahlah, blahblahblah, then after it was freaking crowded lol. It was nice the fireworks, then we went to pizza hut lol. Ate a lot, crapped a lot as well haha. Then did a lot of stuff lah, then on the way back, its like keep holding hands, lol. Then yeah, when reached pasir ris, sent yunxuan back home, super duper scary. LOL. I was like sneaking instead of walking already -.- Scared her mum waiting downstairs for her, but she wasnt, so like yeah, walked her there then went home. When i reached home it was bout 12? Then my mum scolded me but not really lah, just tell me next time dun so late go home, haha. then yeah when reached home, bathed, hit the sack. LOL. Next day, sunday.

Sunday, today was supposed to meet huixiu at 1.45 at ws. In the end i was late worszx, 1st time. HAHA. Okay anyways, everyone supposed to wear formal, then yeah it was quite formal bahs, then when we reached we were early as well, pro rights. LOL. Then watched the concert, the band dynamics is not bad, can go soft, but cannot go real loud, or maybe they dun want as it might affect their tune. oh well, they played postcard! LOL. okay, but really, the ending songs are nice, like "tong hua" and "yue liang dai biao wo de xing" so sad yunxuan never go lol. Cause its like really, want to let her hear one lorhs, ah nvms. Then after that went to swensens and ate. Nic is like so weird lah -.- Everyone else just found out today lol. Then we went out took like freaking gawd lots of pics -.- Then headed home, hehe was tired, then like tired till now until haven sleep uhs? lol. Oh well, shall end the post, lazy write already byebye, i tried my best to made it wordy lol.